IMPOSSIBLE | JIKOOK ✔

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JJK

I can't hurt you,

no - 

not again.

never again.

i'll completely tear myself up, if it makes you happy -  

i can't defend myself against you;

i wont defend myself against you - 

because im afraid.

the fear of hurting you taunts me in my brain, 

so i let you hurt me. 

i let you walk on me.

i let my feelings go,

i let myself go,

my self worth,

my heart,

my everything -

it all goes towards you.

you, who receives it all,

yet continues.

and it's sick,

but then i realise that i've hurt you.

i remember that i've torn you apart - 

so badly that nothing and no one can ever pick up your shattered pieces

and try to fit them together.

it's all pay back now, right?

at the end of it all,

will i be forgiven?

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Im sick of apologising.