Miss Sacrifice

Jaaliyah

Walking into the library was like walking into the Chocolate Factory, all of a sudden i wanted to thank the library for being there and for being a place that Malik came to with his sister. Malik had the most laid back attitude which pulled me closer to him, the curls on his head pilled high, but there was nothing feminine about it but somehow it made him look even more of a man. He talked to me as if we had talked before, he didn't seem as nervous as i was and that made it easier to talk to him. He wore grey sweatpants along with a grey Nike pullover hoodie, his sneakers were fresh but not too fresh and it did not indicate that he was a sneaker head either. He carried himself differently than the other guys, he wasn't cocky and he wasn't shy either. He was just Malik.

"When can I call you?" he had said.

That question was enough to have me melting for him. I was so nervous my hands were drenched and i couldn't believe that they were still capable of holding my books. There was a vibe that i could see coming off of him and onto me, I wanted to keep talking to him or at least listening to him talk because of how nervous i would be around him. I couldn't believe that i sucked up the courage to talk to him or to say what i said but I'm happy i said it.

Exchanging numbers with Malik was probably one of the dauntless things I've ever done in my entire life, and maybe i could get use to it. I began to feel something for Malik and i think i liked that feeling, it was the empty pitch that fell into my stomach when i saw him the first time and when we talked. Its the feeling that kids get when they hear the ice cream truck coming and they run in to ask their parents for money, only for me i want to run to Malik and ask him for a kiss. There was something about him that made me feel as if i could forget all about the past and just live in the moment but what good would that do. With all the bad memories that flow in constantly, it would only ruin things for me and Malik, I wanted things to work or at least become friends but Im sure that would go south as well.

I didnt want to give up quite yet, and I wanted to try things out with Malik and see where things would lead me. I felt something with Malik and i wanted to know what.