Umm..myself huh ? Hard for me to think about it..I never did..I was never able to think of myself..to protect me..physically or mentally..It's actually something easy for plenty of people considering that the majority of them are selfish..they just go on their lives by putting themselves first..to satisfy their ego..everything for their well-being neglecting the consequences..I actually wish I could do that too ..not in that level but at least to have the strength to put myself first ..to care about me more..it's almost impossible to believe in yourself when you have lived all those years putting others first..it's hard now to do something only for you and not for other people..it's hard when you were used to cry over the tiny mistake you made that maybe caused a problem to someone..even someone not that close to you..when you feel like you're losing your whole world by seeing someone cry because of you or even just because they got hurt..you used to cry with them..you used to sacrifice yourself so as to see them happy..and now ? Now it's too late to change it but now someone made you regret that lovely part of you..someone just took advantage of your kindness..and now you're forced to leave back that side of you..you have to be cold and heartless to survive..but no..don't think it that way..life's not easy..life's a bitch..but why give up or harm yourself for people who doesn't even desrve your attention ..you don't have to become a monster to survive..but you shouldn't also be a sheep..love yourself the way you are..believe in you..share love but not by dipriving it from yourself..you actually can't love others if you don't love yourself..I know it..I have been through that and trust me I know how it feels..it's difficult to change what you used to be..but stop putting yourself aside..if u keep hurting yourself you're going to end up not knowing what you want..who you are..and that will hurt everyone close to you..and I know that's the only thing you don't want..so try it..believe it..love yourself..do things that make you happy no matter the cost..smile and take it easy..if you won't try you won't know what you could've won..you have nothing to lose but win..I don't say to stop loving others..that's impossible and I know it by far..but I'm also sure that there is a tiny space in your heart for yourself..just give it a try..and you will see..life will become more beautiful..you are stronger than you think and I am here to ensure you for that..you can do it..I know it..we all know it..life has not only the dark side..it's on you to let her show you the bright side too..you deserve it..everyone does..life's nothing without effort..nothing is gonna be given to you like that..There is no meaning in surviving..try to live your life the way you want it..don't be afraid..if you have something to say say it..miss someone call them..if you love someone let them know..don't waste your time on things that have no meaning..believe in you..believe in what you can do..have dreams and make them come true..everything comes from you..you are the only one that can change everything you don't like about your life..it's up to you..believe it..
Guys thank you so fucking much for the support..I love you all so much..and I want you to know that I am here to every amd each one of you..❤❤❤
