Have you ever felt that you're just going crazy ? That your mind is gonna explode and everyone will get the suck out of here ? I mean you don't really know what you feel..what you want..you just act like life means nothing..like you forgot to be moral and you stop keeping your standards..well..I can't decribe myself better than that..it's like I am lost somewhere..I actually know what I want..what I need but this way or another things go sooo wrong and low-key I enjoy it..but when night comes I start crying cause I mess so bad with my life..I say things I don't wanna say..I do things I don't wanna do and actually there is noone to blame but me..I am not happy but not sad either..I can't say I am okay..just kinda numb and I hate it when it comes to make a decision..a lot of times I feel like I am gonna pass out..like my body can't keep me awake..my legs can't hold me up..it's like you can't actually touch me..I am cool..you can't say something to trigger me..cause it actually won't work on me..Idk how I can call my situation but I feel I am losing my mind..I don't know how to fix this..I don't know if actually can be fixed..I can't laugh truly..I can't even cry on something either tho..I am scared ..what's the next level ? Am I dying ? And if not how can I take myself back ? All I know is that I know nothing..that's my answer in any kind of question I am asked..and it's true..I feel such a mess..people see me crazy and they think I am so happy but I seriously laugh at them..at how irogant life can be..to everyone of us..I mean for a moment I though I was actually getting better.. I was being happy again..but I lost me..and I can't find me..is that the circle life does ? Idk..I just feel lost..
Thanks you so much guys for being here for me..I love you so much and I want you to know that I am always here for you..see ya..❤❤
