Well..those bad bitches can turn your life into a living nightmare and that's for sure..And I am a person with a lot of them..actually let me correct that..I became a person with a lot of them..I used to be such a happy person and proud of myself..but here they come..to mess with my life..and you know what's funny ? They came just for no reason..like it was time for me to face them and don't ask the usual question like " What if I don't want to face them?" Cause bitch,please..they don't ask..You just one day wake up full of insecurities..about how you look, how good you are at your homeworks, how people call you behind your back,why your belly looks fatter today and you know..about everything that comes to you..so that day all you want is blow up your mind..cause voices are too much that you can't handle..you feel worthless and ugly and not good enough for anyone and anything..yeah I know..that's how I've been feeling a long time now..you start hating yourself that much that you fall asleep with the willing not to wake up the next morning..you don't eat in case your body fall apart and finally give up on you..you cut yourself and you stay home but go out and have fun instead..it sucks..you guide yourself to selfharm without even care..praying that someone will kill you cause your too coward to do it yourself..you start see the world so different..so dark and evil..maybe exactly how it is..cause world is just a disappointment..but you know what I realized after years of thinking ? That you're not the one that doesn't deserve the world but world doesn't deserve someone like you..I was seriously thinking about giving up when a voice yelled at me saying "Stay"..that time I faced myself in the mirror .. tears where running down my face watching myself like that..but it was the first time I said to myself.." I don't deserve this"..I realized that killing myself wouldn't change anything..I could still see everyone else hurting and that would be a bigger pain to me..I mean I wanted my soul to rest in peace that way..and I still do..but do those bitches deserve your absence ? Trust me..they don't..why would you make them happy but make them cry instead ? We have a fucking ego..let's use it for once to our well-being..as I read somewhere..suicide doen't take your pain away it just passes it to someone else..don't let anyone not even your own self underestimate your power..we were born to fight and we will.. world's not gonna change but you can shape it on you..the way world sees you is the way you see yourself..so if you have yourself as an ally and not as an opponent in this battle trust me..you've already won..we might have lost many battles and we will lose a lot more but war is not done yet..don't give up and I promise everything will be fixed one day..it's all you that can change this ugly world..take it easy and smile..it's maybe gonna take years to re-built it but you'll make it..oh and let me tell you that you're beautiful, worthfull and above all loved..Keep fighting..
Thank you so fucking much guys that you support me like that..I really appreciate it and I feel so lucky to have you..I am here for all of the cute asses of yours..Love you all so much❤❤❤
