October Soulmates

Chapter 9: John Laurens

A/N: oh hey a new POV? Just kidding, don't worry about it and enjoy the chapter!

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"It's hard to lose someone you love, but it's even worse to lose yourself while loving them."

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John's POV

Wednesday October 10, 2018
4:39 am

I  didn't expect Alexander to be there. I don't know why I wanted him to see me. I've hurt him enough as it is.

The truth is, I really missed him. That sounds stupid now because I was the one who split us apart. I was so drunk and stupid that night. What's worse...

I compared the love of my life to my dead-meat father.

Yes. I was that drunk.

I went so low that my drunk self was comparing my Lexi to Henry Laurens himself. I don't even deserve to call him that. What I want more than anything, is a chance to change and to start over. I would give anything to erase that night completely and go back to how things used to be.

Things aren't going to be that easy. Not with Alexander. He's smart and he's not afraid to do anything drastic

I haven't slept for the past months, and I just want him back.

What have I done?

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Thomas' POV

Wednesday October 10, 2018
8:31 am

"Are you sure you want to do this on your own?" I asked as Alex packed his things from the guest room. He secured the strap around his shoulder, then said.

"I need to fix this on my own."

I knew that already. I couldn't always be there for Alex as much as I wanted to. Now he needed to walk the long road again.

By himself.

"At least just let me drive you, I promise that I'll drive right back here." Alex caressed me.

"You've done enough," he said gingerly. "just stay here, and don't do anything you'll regret."

I took his hand in mine and nodded. Letting go of him felt like torture.

Still, I'll let go of him...

As long as he comes back to me.

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Flashback: On the Island

"Thomas I don't want you to leave." Alex said to me  as my belongings from the house were hauled onto a large ship.

"I know, I don't want to leave either."

I held Alex as he cried, I cried just as much as he did. We were childhood friends, I was there for when his father abandoned him, when he lost his mother,  but now we had to leave.

"I promise I'll meet you again."

Alex wiped away his tears. Smiling at me, he let go.

I wished he hadn't. I wanted to hold him there forever.

I never knew why.