A young woman who's been through hard times in her life, began to seek after people on social media who are happy with their lives with intentions to kill them or make them suffer.
I was sitting in the corner of the room, at Suh-Han High School, located in the library.
I was simply reading a book for my free period, until something caused a distraction.
"Tana, do you wanna go and take pics with the new car your dad bought you yesterday?" Said the "popular" girl's friend.
"Of course. Besides, I just posted a selfie of this new makeup look I did this morning anyways, and I got almost a million likes. Imagine how many likes I'm going to get when I post me sitting on top of my car." Tana responded.
I sat there, soaking in my own silence, with my face buried in the book.
All the girls got out of their seat and walked across the room to head out the class. In doing so, a girl made a rude remark about me to the others and they began to stare and snicker.
I started to feel that burning sensation throughout my entire body. I knew a fiery hate and rage was growing in me. But I denied it day after day.
I started to pack my things because this free period was over. Heading to lunch, I skimmed the halls with my eyes. Observing the actions of all who's around me. I see nothing but the same people with different faces and souls. Caught like a fly in nectar by social media, and silver spoons. I kept walking with my head down to hide my internal rage.
Mentally asking myself, "why does such scums get everything handed to them? Yet, people like me suffer from many stages of abuse, and are taken advantage of ?"
I just could not figure out why. I could not understand why this world was so backwards and upside down. Why doth these people have family who praises them ? And strangers who love them ?
But the more I started to think, the more answers came to me.
If I took away the materialistic items and the long hair that people find enchanting. Then what do they have ? What is left for them to continue on this social media act ? Absolutely nothing.
The day dragged slower than a sloth. But when it finally ended, I began to gather my belongings in order to dismiss from the school.
In doing so, someone had thrown a hard combination lock at me. It had hit me in my eye and I fell down in excruciating pain. Tears of anger began to form, and I tried to restrain myself from acting quickly while checking my eye sight on the left side.
I heard some students laughing, while others were disgusted by my injury. Shortly, I heard clicking heels coming down the hall. It had been the principal. She looked down at me and then at the students and asked "who threw the lock ?!"
No one utter a word.
As I looked up from the right side of my eye at everyone while the principal was shouting, I noticed Tana was standing there snickering with her other friends silently. "It was Tana...." I struggled.
The principal ordered one of the security guards to help me to my feet.
"Tana did you throw a lock at Aurah ?" She asked politely.
"What ?! No ! I didn't throw a lock at her. She just blames me because she always had this weird jealously of me." She lied.
"I saw you over there snickering with your other friends." I said, as the rage started to climb.
"There were a few people laughing, idiot. That doesn't mean it was me." She responded.
"You're going to pay for this...ALL OF YOU ARE GOING TO PAY !!!" I yelled.
Many people continued chuckling, while others looked at me weirdly.
"SILENCE !" The principal shouted.
"Aurah, this school does not tolerate threats of any kind. Understood ? Because of this incident, you should be lucky I'm not taking action with what you just said." She scolded me.
"I just got a damn lock thrown at my eye, if anyone is sending out threats here it's Tana !" I said.
A few people continued laughing while Tana stood there denying what she had done.
"Aurah Smith ! There will be no profanity in this building !" She yelled.
I grabbed my bag and walked towards the door to exit the school.
"AURAH SMITH !!! I demand you to come here AT ONCE !" She shouted.
I continued walking until I made a full exit out of the building.
I walked home, trying to hide the anger I had burning inside.
My father was still at his work place. So when I came home, I was alone. I sat in my quiet room and stared out the window at the sky. Drowning in my own thoughts I began to weep. I can explain what I'm feeling in bits and pieces. But this other feeling.... I cannot give a good enough description.
I had so much anger inside me. Yet, no one to talk to about it.
Full of so much pain .... And considering the fact that no one was home...
I decided that now would be best to leave earth. Because theirs nothing for me here.
I gently got out of the window pane and went in my closet to get the rope.
I tied it on my ceiling fan and pushed a chair under them both.
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I stared at the rope with tears in my eyes as I took my first step onto the chair.
Suddenly, I heard the front door open. My father had returned home from work.
"AURAH !!!! YOUR SCHOOL CALLED ME !!! GET DOWN HERE !" He angrily said.
No matter how much I wanted to restrain my foot from the chair, I just couldn't. My will to live is now gone. All I could think to myself is, "it'll be all over soon."
So I took another step in the chair.
I grabbed the rope with both hands to apply it on my neck. Before I could do so, my door swung open. I slowly turned around, and saw my father standing in the doorway, with his eyes gapping open.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING ?!!!" He screamed.
I stared at him with eyes full of tears while shaking. Not uttering even the simplest of words.
