Wrong Move 7
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Pagkarating ko sa bahay, nagbihis lang ako at umalis na ulit para pumunta sa ospital. Tinanong pa ako ni Mama kung saan ako pupunta bago ako umalis. Sinabi ko na lang na may pupuntahan akong kaibigan. Maybe it was a good thing na hindi na sya nagtanong kung sinong kaibigan at saan ako pupunta kaya it didn't sound like I lied, though in a way, it still did, dahil sinabi ko ulit na kasama ko si Maki.
Bago ako pumunta sa ospital, naisip ko munang ibili si Ian ng prutas sa convenience store para may makain sya. I'm pretty sure gising na yun pagdating ko. I just bought three apples at two oranges dahil hindi ko naman alam kung ano yung hilig nya. As soon as I arrived, dumeretso agad ako sa room nya. I didn't even bother knocking, tahimik kong binuksan yung pinto at doon ko nakitang may mga bisita sya. Two guys from a private school. I can say it dahil sa uniform na suot nila at tingin ko mga kaibigan yun ni Ian. While peeking, I smiled. Nakikita ko kasi silang tatlo na nagtatawanan. It kinda made me feel na unti-unti, nagiging okay na ang lahat. I'm glad to see Ian laughing again.
Nang ma-realize kong hindi ganun ka-importante yung pinag-uusapan nila, dun na ako kumatok to get their attention. From peeking, I finally went inside the room with an awkward smile. Yung mga bisita ni Ian nakatingin sakin nun na parang nagtataka. Maybe because they don't know me. I thought. Ian smiled as he looked at me. Lumapit agad ako nun sa kanya at pinatong muna yung dala kong brown bag na may lamang prutas sa mesa na katabi lang ng kama nya.
"Kamusta ka na?" I asked him.
Imbis na sagutin ako, nagulat ako nang iharap nya ako dun sa dalawa nyang bisita. He was sitting on the hospital bed kaya madali nya yun nagawa. "They're my friends." Sabi nya.
"Nice to meet you." I said as I bowed. Nakita ko naman na ngumiti sila after ko gawin yun.
Humarap ulit ako nun kay Ian. "I'm sorry." I sincerely said sabay yuko.
"It's not your fault." He said as he pinched my nose. "I told you yesterday that I was willing to do it so there's no need to feel sorry." Muli syang ngumiti after nun.
Sa totoo lang, hindi ko na alam yung gagawin ko. I don't even know what to say. Ian's too kind na sa bawat ngiting binibigay nya, mas sumasama yung loob ko sa sarili ko. Pakiramdam ko sa bawat galaw at salita ko nasasaktan ko sya. In a short span of time, medyo naintindihan ko na rin sya. He may be smiling but I know he's hurt deep inside. He's a dandere just like those characters in the manga that I read and it's just no good. I'm too much for him and he's too much for me.
Shortly after, umalis na rin yung mga kaibigan nya at kami na lang dalawa ang naiwan. Pinaupo nya ako nun sa tabi nya na ginawa ko naman dahil wala rin akong maupuan.
"Kamusta ka na ulit? Yung ulo mo, does it still hurt? How about your leg?" Sunud-sunod kong tanong habang pinagbabalat sya ng mansanas na binili ko.
"Okay na okay na ako." Tinaas pa nya yung right arm nya at pinakita sakin yung muscles nya as if making me believe na okay na talaga sya. Natawa na lang tuloy ako sa ginawa nya. "Though, I still feel a bit dizzy at times. Normal lang naman siguro yun dahil natamaan din ako sa ulo, but it'll fly away." Dagdag pa nya.
"And your leg?" I gave a glance on his leg.
"It's okay now. The doctor said it was not a serious fracture, but they had to put a bandage and leg support for extra protection. Pede na nga rin ako lumabas dito sa isang araw, e. Kaya nga..." He paused and pinched my nose again. "You don't have to worry anymore."
After hearing those, I thought of myself as the happiest girl in the world. Yung mga sinabi nya, that's exactly more than a good news to me. Pakiramdam ko yung sayang nararamdaman ko nun was beyond pa that I could cry, but of course, I stopped myself from doing it dahil napapagod na rin akong umiyak. I just expressed my happiness by hugging him so tight na alam kong ikinagulat nya.
"Thank you so much. Thank you for being okay. I'm so glad to hear that."
I continued peeling the apple and everytime na matatapos ako, sinusubo ko yun kay Ian. He's finally back to being lively, yung madaldal at walang tigil sa pagkwento. Sana palagi na lang syang ganito.
"You know what? I'm so happy right now. Kasi nandito ka, taking care of me. This is also a dream come true."
Sandaling natulala ako sa kanya nang sabihin nya yun. Habit na nga siguro nyang magsabi ng something out of the blue. Seconds after he said those, yumuko sya. Nagtaka pa nga ako nung ginawa nya yun until I realized the reason behind him doing so.
"Are you blushing?" I even tried to lift his head up para makita yung mukha nya pero inalis nya rin agad yung kamay ko.
"Don't look at me!" He said as he covered his face with a pillow.
Natawa na lang ako sa ginawa nya. He blushed right after nya sabihin sakin yun. Siguro nung nasa sinehan kami nag-blush din sya, hindi ko lang napansin dahil madilim sa loob. "Diba dapat ako yung mag-blush at hindi ikaw?"
"What I said was embarassing!"
All I did was laugh while he was blushing. It was my first time seeing him like that. Ilang beses pa nya akong sinabihan na tumigil na sa pagtawa but I just couldn't stop. I somehow find this act of him so cute, again. I even heard him whispering to himself, "Damn. Why do I have to blush at this moment?"
Nang maka-move on ako sa pagtawa, dun ko inalis yung unan na nakaharang sa mukha nya. Hindi na naman nya ako pinigilan ulit na gawin yun. He's still blushing pero hindi na sya ganun ka-pula katulad nung una. I just smiled at him habang naka-yuko pa rin sya. Magsasalita na sana ako nun nang unahan nya ako.
"You don't have to go here anymore." He finally lifted his head up and looked at me. "I'm okay now. Nadalaw mo na ako. Okay na ako." Then he smiled. "Salamat pala dahil pinagbigyan mo ako kahapon, though feeling ko na-bore ka lang kasama ako."
Umiling agad ako nung sinabi nya yun. Nilagay ko muna ulit sa mesa yung apple at kutsilyo na hawak ko before facing him again. "I honestly enjoyed it."
His face brightened after hearing what I said, but it just lasted for seconds. "You can reject me now. Tatanggapin ko na."
Hindi agad ako naka-sagot sa sinabi nya. I don't even know why and I don't understand. Kung tutuusin, I should be happy from hearing it dahil sa wakas, hindi na bibigat pa yung loob ko. Isa pa, aminin ko man o hindi, I know that's what I've been waiting for. Yung sya na mismo ang mag-open up ng topic tungkol dun dahil hindi ko yun magagawa. A part of my chest hurt from hearing it. Alam kong hindi nya yun gustong sabihin at hindi rin nya gustong marinig yung alam na nyang sasabihin ko. Just thinking about what he might feel after this...
I finally took a deep breath after some thinking. If there's one thing that I'm sure of, it's that I don't want to hurt him. Kahit dito man lang, I could make Ian smile. I could see his true smile.
Dahan-dahan akong umiling habang nakangiti. "Give me more time to think about it."
After I saying that, hindi ko ma-explain yung expression ng mukha nya and to say it exactly, it was mixed, I guess. Siguro dahil hindi nya ine-expect yung sagot ko. Kahit naman ako.
He suddenly held my hand and slighty squeezed it, then yumuko sya because he was starting to blush again. "Geez. I'm so happy I could die." Yung isang kamay nya, itinakip nya sa mukha nyang super red na ulit before continuing. "I'll be waiting for you, Fei."
I couldn't say anything that I just smiled and squeezed his hand back. Maybe, just maybe, it'll be better this way.
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