Some poetry

Shadows

I wanna love you till my pen runs out of ink and I only write with pencils so...

Stop
I've seen this before and I always die inside at the end
This movie sucks
Boy meets girl and they turn into friends
Feelings rush
Now boyfriend and girlfriend together to the end
The end has come
And they didn't even really know each other
I'm yo nigga but what's my favorite color
That may be your girl but do you really trust her
Relationships aren't free trials
Time is money and emotions are interest
Relationships aren't what you see on Pinterest
They're more than that
Relationships aren't to be made in moments you have to build up to that
Build a foundation get confirmation or else it won't last
And they all go through a rough patch but as long as you're here everything is fine
I could lose everything as long as you're still mine
I can't help how I feel inside
Talk to me let me know what's on you're mind
You tell me you think we need some time
It's just a break right ?
You wouldn't throw everything we had away right?
...right?

That's when things go left
Now I'm alone and there's no one here to help
Heart broken so no more emotions to swim in
Depression is calling and really about to give in
Getting harder to smile and I don't what I'm feelin
This emptiness inside and Its really starting to fill in
How you gonna say you're in love when you never been in
How you gonna pause me and you and then never finish
How you say let's talk about it but never listen
I hear you're name and heartbreak same time
I see your face and can tell that those aren't the same eyes
Sadness is slowly taking over and I'm starting to get numb
Demons catching up to me I try to move but I can't run
Why'd you lie and say you love me when you never gave a fuck
Looked me in my eyes and told me all those lies for what?
I wish I wasn't here so I go and try to numb
Love was my addiction and you took away the drug
Love is so complex but with you I'm not confused
All the drugs and I never got the feeling I get from you
I can't breathe
The feeling built inside Me
The depression the anger the heartbreak and anxiety
I could take a shot roll a blunt pop a bar or a bean till I OD
Or I...
Do nothing because these are just thoughts and there's too many things on earth meant for me to do before I leave
Although I want to there's no time to grieve over things that couldn't be
Write these thoughts down bottle my emotions and let it set out to sea
I'll sit here and I'll write until these feeling goes away and I can finally breathe
I want to but I can't love you no one more so I'll write until my pen runs out of ink

-(written part only)
I love you