The Diavoli Forti

Chapter 13: The next move

         I awoke to the sound of Tony's soft snoring. We were tucked warm under the covers. His arm was draped over me. The sun was shining through my window. I laid there for a moment. Trying to soak in everything that happened last night. Was this a one time thing? Will he regret it when he wakes up? I very carefully move Tony's arm and slide out of bed. He shuffles a bit but doesn't wake. I start to stretch a bit until I hear a knock at my door. I freeze in my tracks. My eyes widen in fear, trying to figure out my next move. Do I dare answer?

"McKenna?"

I hear JR's voice. My heart starts beating extremely fast. My feet became light underneath my body. I didn't answer. I quickly grab my towel from last night off the floor. I have issues wrapping it around myself. I was fumbling so much from being nervous. He knocks again.

"McKenna, you in there?"

Before he has time to open it, I bolt for the door. I hear Tony get up behind me but I don't look back at him. I slightly open the door and stick my head out.

"Sorry, I'm not dressed. What's up?"

"I was beginning to worry. We are about to have a meeting downstairs in the dining room. 10 minutes. I would like for you to be there."

I smile trying to play off my nervousness, "Absolutely. Yes sir."

He gives me a look. I could tell he was confused and curious.

"Have you seen Tony this morning?"

My heart stopped.

"No sir. I haven't left my room this morning."

"Well if you see him, tell him about the meeting please."

I shake my head yes and quickly shut the door and lock it behind me. I take a sigh of relief and collapse on the floor. My heart was still racing. I look over and see Tony already had his swim trunks on from last night. He comes over and sticks his hands out to pull me up.

"That was too close.." He says .

I could see him second guessing. It was all in his face.

"I understand Tony. We can just forget this ever happened. It's not going to hurt my feelings."

I could feel my heart sink and the disappointment come across my face at my own words. I tried to not look at him to hide it. He pulls my body into him. He gently grabs my face and lifts it to his.

"I don't want to forget what happened here. I'm just processing."

My cheeks smile under his hand. He kisses me on my forehead and lets go, "I do need you to understand though. I'm not the flowers and chocolate, fall in love kind of guy. I care for you. That is the extent of my emotions. You can't make more of what we're doing. There can be no relationship, fall in love, marriage and babies thing here. Okay?" I nod my head in agreement, "I wasn't expecting it. Geez Tony, a little prideful of what you offer down there?"

He lets out a chuckle, "I better change clothes and get downstairs."

I watch him as he leaves my room. I couldn't believe this was happening. I knew despite what he said we would eventually have some kind of relationship between us if we kept it up. I just didn't know when. Two people can not do such raw actions without feeling some type of emotion for each other. All those raw actions do is strengthen it. I also didn't want to push Tony on it. I know he feels like he would be betraying my father as well. What about home? Does this change things? Will I ever go back home? I start to think I might be getting to emotionally involved with these people.
I throw on some sweat pants and a T-shirt. I make my way downstairs and see no one. They must have started the meeting without me. I walk to the dining room and see all the guys gathered around the table. They all look at me as I enter the room. Awkward. Jonathan pats the seat next to him. I take a seat and see that Tony is right across from me. I tried to not look at him. I knew I wouldn't be able to hide my nervousness I would get being around him now. I didn't want to raise suspicions. JR stands up.