Fighting Liliana

Chapter Seven

I dodge Mya's punch that aimed straight for my head, with my right hand. I winced in pain when she hit my hand and she noticed. She smirked at me and kept punching me in my wrist. I blocked one of her punches and started backing her into a corner. She wrapped me up and the referee quickly told us to back away from each other.

I thought I had a clear shot to Mya's stomach, but she was too quick and punched me straight in the face. I fell back against the ropes. "Come on Lil!", I hear Cierra and Gigi yelling. I spit my blood out of the ring, and yell "Come on!", straight in Mya's face. She went to punch me again, but I ducked and started punching her in her stomach over and over. It was time for round two, so we separated. I was already tired, and it didn't really look like Mya was.

I looked around and noticed how big of a crowd was here. Round two started and I ran straight to Mya, punching her in the gut again. I swung at her face, she ducked but I swung again and connected straight with her head. She fell to the ground, and she loses a point. Our score is now 10-8 because I think I won the first round. "Pace yourself Liliana!", I hear Parker yell.

She gets up, walks over to me and kicks me straight in the face. I fall to the ground immediately, but she keeps kicking me in my head. I feel her pulled off of me, but I can barely focus on anything. My head is hurting, and I can't breathe. Parker gets in the ring, and picks me off of the ground. The medics rush in to check my head. "What happened?", I ask Parker.

"She's disqualified, Lil. She's not allowed to use her feet in this match at all. She could've killed you with the way she was kicking you in your head. I'm fucking pissed.", he says angrily and stands up. "Liliana, I'm Dr. Sanchez. I'm here to check on you okay?", he says. "Yes sir.", I reply. "Can you open your eyes for me?", he asks. "The light hurts really bad.", I say. "Okay, can you try your best for me?", he asked.

I open my eyes, and they're really sensitive to all of the lights that are around me. "Your pupils are definitely dilated.", the doctor said. "Can you follow my finger with your eyes", I follow his fingers, but as they get closer to my head, I start throwing up instantly. Parker rubs my back, "I'm so sorry I made you do this Lil.", he says sadly. "It's okay", I choked out.

"Next time this won't happen.", I say. "Next time? Are you insane?", I hear an angry Cierra storm up to me with Gigi right by her side. "This is the last time. There is no next time. You were almost killed out there Liliana.", she yells. "Cierra, I'm okay. ", I say. "You're not okay. You can't handle this-", I cut her off, "Cierra shut the hell up! My head hurts.", I yell.

The doctor looks at me, "I need you to calm down. Go home and take it easy. You definitely have a bad concussion. No fighting for a least a month. If you head doesn't start easing up, I'd like for you to get an MRI to make sure there's no bleeding. ", he says. "A month? Are you crazy?", I ask. "I'm sorry Liliana, but more damage to your head could end up being very bad for you.", he replies and walks away. "This is your fault", Gigi says to Parker.

"It's not his fault", I say quietly. "No, she's right. It is my fault. I should have never forced you to box in your first match tonight. I should have never forced you to start boxing period." , He said sadly. "I'm glad you know.", Cierra said. "Will all of you shut the fuck up! This is nobody's fault, but mine. I chose to start boxing, I chose to be in this match tonight.

I knew what I was getting myself into and it had nothing to do with the three of you. It was for me. I'm going home, you're all pissing me off. " , I say and walk outside. I see Mya, laughing with her coach. I walk over to her, and push her. "What the hell is your problem?", I ask. "Whoa Liliana, do you not remember what I just did to you in there? It must be the head injury.", she laughs. "Screw you. If you're so tough how about you fight me outside of the ring.", I yell in her face.

"Oh really? Okay.", she says and punches me in my face. I push her over and start kicking her in her stomach over and over. "Liliana! Stop!", Parker says running over to me. He pulls me off, and pulls me to the side. "What are you doing?", he asks me loudly. "I'm leaving all of my problems here tonight. If she doesn't want to follow the rules, then I'm not either", I say pushing him out of my way.

I look down at Mya and she's gasping for air, while clutching her abs. I smile at her, and I walk home. Once I get to my apartment, I check my phone and I have a bunch of missed calls and text from Parker, Gigi, Cierra, and even my brother. The light from my phone is hurting my eyes, so I turn the brightness down. I called my brother, and he answered immediately. "What the hell are you doing Liliana?", he yells into the phone.

"What's wrong?", I asked knowingly. "What's wrong? Are you serious?", he asks. "Quiet down please. Look, I'm sorry I didn't tell you about me boxing-", he cuts me off. "No, you didn't tell me! I find out through an internet video of you getting kicked in the head over and over again. You could've died Liliana, you are so selfish. I only have you now. We only have each other!", he yells at me.

I feel tears stinging my eyes, and I feel bad instantly. "I'm sorry Charlie. I know I'm selfish.", I say and hang up the phone. I throw my phone against the wall and it shatters. I start bawling and I slide down my living room wall. "I'm sorry mom and dad.", I look up and cry even harder. At this point I don't know what to do with myself. I go into my bathroom and look for my lighter.

I light a cigarette, but then I instantly throw it out. I take the lighter and I burn my hand, right where my splint covers. I put my lighter up and I walk to the fridge and grab a pint of liquor and I start chugging it. I start crying again and I can't stop. I take the bottle once I'm done with it, and I throw it at the wall. It shatters everywhere. I don't want to see anyone tomorrow. I get off of the couch and I walk towards my bed.

I lay down in my boxing gear and I fall straight asleep. I wake up to banging on my front door, and I hear yelling. "Liliana I'm sorry. Please tell me you're okay!", Parker yells. I run to the bathroom and start throwing up and then I walk out into the living room and my eyes widen. There's shattered glass everywhere from a liquor bottle that's completely empty, and my phone that's broken. I open the door, but leave the bolt on. "I'm fine. Thanks for checking, go away.", I say and close the door again. "Liliana, please talk to us.", I hear Cierra. "Please Lil.", Gigi yells.

"All of you can see that I'm alive, you can go now.", I reply. "Liliana, I'm worried about you. I spoke to Charlie.", Cierra says. "I don't want you to close yourself off from the world again Liliana.", Gigi says. "Go away. All of you. I want to be alone.", I whimper. I hear footsteps leave from in front of my door, so I go into the bathroom. "I look awful", I say to myself, looking into the mirror.

My eyes are bloodshot red, my curly hair is matted, and my hand is all burnt up. I remember what happened last night and I start crying again. I haven't lost my temper like that in two years. My therapist had me on a straight path and now I feel like I'm back how I was after my parents died, and the rape. I blast "Stressed Out" by Twenty One Pilots and I get in the shower. I wash my hair and I feel the burn I made on my hand last night start to sting. I'm such an idiot, I've relapsed after all of these years of not doing anything.

When I'm done showering, I get some cereal. I look at the time on my TV and it says that it's 3:42 PM. I missed work, but I don't even care. Mr. Hamilton is probably calling my phone as we speak, but I guess I really won't be able to know if he does or not. I look at my iPhone and it's completely shattered. I guess I have to go buy another phone. I sigh, grab my wallet, and walk out the door.