My life, Her life, Their lives.

Chpt 18: The past should stay in the past (Pov Ana)

"Buzz Buzz" My phone rang and woke me up from a deep sleep. I sighed and groggily lifted myself up from the bed. This definitely was the Saddest looking motel I had ever seen. I hadn't been able to have a good look when I first came in so I looked around me, The wallpaper was peeling and crusted the curtains were stained and the bed had an old and tacky flowery spread. The only plus side to this room was the included small bathroom. I looked at my phone again. 21 missed calls It; went off again. This time It was Nate, I considered hanging up but the thought occurred to me that I could talk to him about this, easily. He knew how I felt more than anyone else in that situation. I picked up the phone and managed to croak out a "Hello?". I coughed again to clear my throat "He..hello?" I tried again "Hey. Where are you? Did you just wake up? you sound like an old smoker." He laughed "What...uh. Yes. I.. I did." I say defeated "I'm at a very sad looking motel actually But please Nate don't say anything to anyone. I don't want to deal with Cameron just yet or anyone for that matter . It's it's.. Just too much." I began to rant."Ey I know how you feel, mind if I join you.? You know I'm a little paranoid your boyfriend might come and smash my head open in my sleep." He laughed "Haha ex... But that Sounds fine." I casually mentioned, I gave him the address if this godforsaken motel. Taking advantage of the couple minute wait I fixed myself up slightly enough to look presentable and waited a couple minutes more until he arrived to the door. He knocked once and I let him in. He picked me in his arms into a long warm hug. God I really needed that. I held on a little longer and closed my eyes to enjoy the hug before pulling away and smiling "Hey. Did anyone follow you here?" I wanted to get that out of the way. I was straight forward about things."No one Thank god." He smiled and hugged me again longer this time. "How are you holding up?" "I'm fine." I mutter into his shoulder as i took a deep breath. He smelt amazing."Hey Did you hear anything funny? i think I heard a phone." He pulled away lightly breaking my train of thought. "Oh my phone?" I picked up my phone from the bed "It's dead." I smiled looking up at him tossing it back to the bed. "You sure ?" He said "Mhm. Now Sit down everything has been so messed up today right" I start patting the empty spot beside me. He sat very close to me. "God you don't even know My head is pounding and I can't stop thinking about it and thats making it worse " He smiled holding his hand to his head dramatically. "yeah, my heads pounding too. I came here to get away from everything and everyone." I say standing up and getting some aspirin from my purse.

"Cam throws a good punch" he laughed taking the small pill into his hand along with my own hand."Yeah he does Doesn't he" I said smiling and taking my hand back. Cam.... "But" He looked at me straight in the eyes "You and cam ? you two were never really good together you know..." He said looking down "maybe it's for the best." "I think we might be through. I don't know .. I don't know anything right now, he isn't important but you are, right now what's important is your face, its pretty beat up , you're hurt and in pain." I got up and went over to the bathroom to get the small first aid kit. I walked back to him and sat down beginning to cleaning off his face gently "This might sting" I say wiping a small rag across his face and cuts "Nothing I can't handle" he flashed me a cheeky smile before crying out "ahh god" "Haha well apparently you can't handle a lot." I smiled back "That.. That does sting" He blushed and flashed me another smile "Hush little baby Nate" I laughed "Be a big boy and suck it up for a little longer." He laughed and I finished wiping his face then added some cream to the open cuts "Iv been holding back everything for a while" he started to say slowly as I ran the cold cream over the sores "Well tell me about it then." I smiled getting the bandages ready by cutting up little strips. "i don't think i can really" He said standing up. He started walking around the small room Stretching "Well why not" I say as i stood up too. I grabbed his hand and looked up into his eyes "..tell me." "It's stupid" He said as he kicked the bed resting his head against the wall.

"Hey Nate don't do that. You're not Cameron." I laughed and walked towards him grabbing his hands Into mine."Nathan look at me ,Look at me please." he turned to face me "It's alright. Okay I know this is hard But It will be okay in the end you're strong and brave and amazing and we love you.. I love you. I've known you so long and I care too much about you to leave you alone." He took a deep breath, i smiled and hugged him "It's alright." I said into his ear "We will all be fine. This will blow over." "It's her" he said quietly to me I knew it, why this again! " I know." I sighed as he looked up at the ceiling fed up breaking from my hug he started to walk around again "You think it's easy watching someone you once cared about with someone else" I could hear his voice change to anger. "I love Taylor; She's my best friend And I love her so much. But she isn't the one for you ok. At all She brought out the worst in you and you in her. Nate please " "you think i dont know that .. " he began to argue with me "The thing you two had was never love! and now she loves someone else. Okay. I'm sorry." I snap. This wasn't the first time this conversation had happened. Not only with me. "You think this whole fucking engagement thing is any fun for me! c'mon What am i meant to do ! Smile and say congrats on moving on past me?!" He ignored me and continued.