My life, Her life, Their lives.

Chpt 22: It can't hurt if you don't care (Pov Taylor)

it was the next day after the whole disastrous night. i laid in bed thinking about how everything just went out of control. I turned to my side and looked at the empty half of the bed , there was no shawn, no good morning kiss or cup of tea, no smile from the person i loved who slept next to me. it was the first night of being engaged and i didn't wake up next to my fiancé. Instead i woke up to disappointment, a head ache and a phone call . i stretched to the bed side table and answered the phone, it was Ana "hello cookie ?" i said , i was exhausted "Ta...ta..Taylor" she sobbed into the phone, hearing her upset made me get out of bed "what's wrong cookie" "Taylor I'm so sorry... I was so stupid. I need you to meet me at the motel. Please" she begged crying , i was so confused and still tired, my brain was a mess  "ok cookie don't worry ill drive there straight away" i closed the phone , I jumped out of my bed stumbling as i went to my closet I picked out some jeans and a sweater and got changed slightly tripping over as i was taking off my sweatpants and T-shirt. I was finally dressed still half asleep but i was dressed, I grabbed my purse and ran out the door, i made it to the elevator of my apartment building then stopped and realized. Looking down at my feet i was only wearing my socks, I'd forgotten to put on my boots and i also for got my jacket. I walked back to my apartment frustrated, found my boots along with my jacket and put them both on as i walked out the door again. The elevator was a bit older than how it was a couple years ago, it was slightly concerning because of the noises it made; Standing in the elevator my mind was full, everything Shawn had said last night pounded in my head how will this day be, i thought to myself. The loud ding from the elevator finally reaching to the bottom floor scared me out of my thoughts, i shook my self awake and got out my car keys as i ran slightly to my car, i got in and raced to the motel. Driving throughout the streets my head was full of thoughts again, but i cut them off as i had made it to the motel. Rushing out of my car and speeding into the motel i didn't have enough time to take the elevator so i ran up the stairs. Out of breath and barley awake i managed to use the little bit if energy to walk the rest of that way to Ana's room but all i could hear was Shawn's voice in my head "He will try and ruin everything" as though i didn't know that all ready i was going mad!My heart, not only was it pounding from the lack of oxygen i was getting because of running up 11 flights of stairs but for some reason i was nervous to talk to Ana "As i walk through that door the story will be about Nate i just know it" i thought to myself, taking a deep breath I knocked on the door "Ana it's me" The door was unlocked so i walked in and saw Ana on the floor sobbing. I ran up to her and put my arm around her trying to comfort her "Taylor... Taylor I'm an idiot. I'm so sorry. I ruined everything Please listen to me. Please don't leave me I need you.... I need you.... I'm so sorry" Ana grabbed me, hugging me tightly she was crying hysterically, even though she didnt listen to me i couldn't be mad at her, it was Nate he had a way of manipulating people i was one to know "shhh don't cry Ana , C'mon wipe the tears away" i held her by her shoulders trying to straighten her up, i was prepared for what she had to say even though it was going to hurt a little "Ana .. tell me what's wrong" "Taylor I messed up so bad... I'm so stupid. I kissed Nate... I was upset and weak and he told me everything was alright and that he would care for me and he did... I let him get in my head... And he kissed me. And I kissed him back" she carried on and explained everything. Hearing the parts with Nate made me.... i dunno angry? I shouldnt let it get to me its time that i should of forgotten him and that past years ago  and worry about my Fiancé.... My Shawn.

"Oh god Taylor I'm so sorry" i looked at Ana giving her a hug "I'm so sorry I regret everything, I hate him he's cruel and awful and I hate him" i slowly let go of her and just looked at her as she told me things i already knew about Nate "I'm so sorry Taylor" "now you know" i replied calmly "Being with Nate was the biggest mistake i ever made but i learned from it. And now you know how he really is" i stood up and pulling Ana up from the floor with me "He told Cameron when he showed up. And he rubbed it in his face and made him miserable. And Cameron hates me He hates me now... All because I was stupid and Nate..." I took hold of Ana looking into her eyes "do you see why i didn't want you near him , why i wanted you to go to my apartment . why didn't you listen Ana" "IM SO STUPID" she yelled as she began to tear up again. i pulled her towards the bed so we could sit and talk "I should have listened to you, Taylor please forgive me I'm so sorry" to be honest i had every right to walk out as soon as she told me the story but i was very surprised on how little this bothered me and at that moment i realized Nate wasn't a part of my life anymore and whatever happens with him wouldn't bother me at all . it's almost like clarity "Ana I'm not mad at you i know Nate , he digs into people's heads" I decided it would be a good wakeup call if i told her what was happening with me and Shawn. "ok Ana" i said holding her hand "Taylor I lost the love of my life because of that dick!, he's cruel , he's a low life scum bag who has no feelings for anyone" i cut her off "Ana your sounding like me when me and Nate broke up now listen to me" she stopped talking "this thing with you and Nate didn't only effect you Ana. its not only making Cam feel horrible its ruining me and Shawn and our wedding" as i told her that i could see the devastation in her face "I never wanted to hurt you... Or Shawn" i could feel tears roll down my cheeks but i held them in as much as i could " we didn't sleep together last night , he stayed with cam he said it would be best until we cleared this whole mess up " "I love you both. You have been my best friend since I was a little girl. And Shawn he's the best guy in the world for you Nate ruined you and Shawn with keeping those pictures He knew he would see them!! And after that he made sure I fell for him to ruin me and Cameron. He is ruining both our lives he can't accept the fact the we found love. the fact that you moved on and that you're happier without him might of drived him crazy" i stood up "we cant let him come back into our lives, he's too much trouble We will cut him off. I should of done that ages ago"

Ana stood up holding one of my hands and looked at me "don't worry cookie , I'll try hard to explain to Cam" I say as i hugged her. she let go of me and her face looked like she had a weird idea "I'm a lawyer. Let's get a restraining order! He won't ever bug us again. I can write one up." she smiled. its was a pretty good plan but to me i think that will cause more trouble somehow. just the thought of getting someone a restraining order seemed insane "as great as that sounds a restraining order might be too far, how about we just go on a vacation and forget all this stress i mean nate wont know and i know how we could get Cam to go" ana shook her head and walked around "How about this, I write one up... We go on vacation and relax We go to Vegas and throw you the bachelorette party you deserve and Cameron will throw Shawn his. We can head to a place after not far from Vegas Somewhere relaxing and plan the wedding stress free Then when we return If Nate dares to do anything the order is already written and we finalise it to secure the wedding" as ridicules as that sounded it was actually a good idea "sounds like a great idea I'm up for that" i smile tapping on my knees. Ana turned around and looked at me "Can I hug you? " she shrugged smiling. I smiled got up from the bed and gave her a big hug "answer your question ?" i laughed as she huged me tighter "Please Taylor I know what I did was unforgivable But please I beg of you. Help me get Cameron back. I have a plan... I think might just work." I let go of her "ok well i need to call Cam then and i need to talk to shawn" "Don't tell Cameron we talked! I will explain the plan to you later" she was cut off when my phone rang , it was Sam's caller ID "its sam"  i looked at my phone confused and look to Ana. Why on earth was he calling? I let out a small soft laugh and answered the phone
"Sam?"