I Am [NOT] A Monster (Suicidal AU/ KiriBaku Fanfic)

. . . . Well Then. . .

-At the Hospital-

{Bakugou's pov}

"Finally... I'm free.. at last...." My tears trickle down my pale looking cheeks as I look ahead of me. A bright light is there, it's beautiful. But then it all goes dark. I wipe my eyes frantically and look around, but see nothing but black. Then a bright light flashes in my face causing me to blink a few times and when I can see once again, I see myself in a hospital. Surrounded by; Aizawa, Deku, and Kirishima.

"The fuck is going on?! I'm dead! I'm dead! I'M DEAD! JUST GIVE UP! I'M GONE! I WON'T COME BACK! I WON'T COME BACK! I!~ I.... I won't come back... never.. I can't...." I say pacing around the darkened room, I glance at everyone and they all seem to be crying.

'It's probably fake..'

I reach out to touch Aizawa, but my hand fades through him like he's only a hologram. I try and touch Deku's shoulder too but fail miserably. I come to touch Kirishima's shoulder and my hand actually rests on it.

He glances up in my direction for a moment and smiles as tears continue rushing down his red, puffy cheeks. "Can~ Can you see me Kirishima?" I ask in a very confused tone, he nods slightly and trys to give me a hug. But he fazzes through me, tears rush down his cheeks more as he trys to wipe them away.

'I fucking hate seeing him like this... I~ I actually hate seeing them all like this.. What's this feeling? Is it regret? No! It can't be! I'm finally free! Nothing to worry about anymore!' At these thoughts my heart begins aching. I know it's regret, but it's too late... I know I'm gone~ and their ain't no coming back...

Everything goes dark.

{ Kirishima's pov }

Tears...

I jolt awake, death... His death.... It's all I can think of.. 'What if he does die....' I think nervously. I go to scratch my head and feel a sharp point poke my hand. "Welp-- I guess I 'forgot' to shower last night..." I mumble and rub my eyes. My face is damp and my eyes burn as I sigh, I just don't care...

I grab my phone and turn it on, using it as a source of light. I then force myself out of the comfort of my bed and walk to my bathroom effortlessly. When I reach the bathroom I look in the mirror.

Red....

'It's your fault Kirishima, how could you be so naive and clueless. Are you really his best friend? I mean, best friends are supposed to know when something is wrong--'

"S-Shut the fuck up...."

'S-Shut the fuck up? No.'

'Why me..? And why now... Is it really my fault..? I didn't do anything to him....' I strip off my clothing and step into the shower before turning the water on. I make sure it's hot enough and step under, the warmth envilopes me as my hair slowly falls to my shoulders. I sigh.

'Tell shitty hair I say thank you... Tell him I say thank you for putting up with my bullshit for as long as he did.. Even though he could've given up on me..... I appreciate it.. A lot....'

"Fuck, Bakugou.. why didn't you tell me something was up... I could've helped, or at least listened..." I pick up my bottle of shampoo and pour some into my hand, soaping my hair and washing it out.

I soon turn off the water and grab my towel, wrapping it around my waist as I leave the room with my phone in hand. "Hm... I wonder..? Would someone pick up if I were to call, Bakugou?" I turn my phone on and open his contact, pressing the call button and putting it on speaker.

Your call has been forwarded to the voicemail services, please leave a message after the beep. *beep*

I hang up the call and sigh. "Is his phone even with him..? I didn't see it in his room yesterday night.." Knowing that no one would probably answer if I called again. I toss on my large, red, shark onesie and my slippers then walk out of my room. I slowly make my way downstairs, not knowing what time it is.

I purposely walk by Bakugou's dorm room, peaking my head in again. This time, when I look in I see a key ring, knowing exactly what it's for. I take it and close his door. Locking it.

I continue to walk down the halls in silence and soon enough I'm in the commons area, standing in the doorway. I feel a poke on my arm and jump, whipping around in fear. There stood before me, the electric blonde teen. "Hey Kirishima, what are you doing awake?" He asks suspiciously, crossing his arms as he yawns. "I could ask you the same thing." I muttered, arching a brow.

The honey blonde haired teen sighs silently, rubbing his left eye. "Well, I woke up because I was hungry. Then when I looked out of my door, you were just pacing around the halls." He explained in a whisper. "Also, have you been crying by any chance? It just looked like you were while you were pacing.." He added.

I look at him in shock, not knowing what to say. I can't tell him about what I found in Bakugou's room, I can't tell him I wasn't in my dorm when we were told to go. I just can't tell him..... He may not even believe me, let alone understand.. He may think it was just a nightmare or something........ I'm just so confused right now!

"Gah! I swear to fucking god! If this was all because of Mineta! I'm gonna!~" I yell, pulling at my hair as Kaminari shushes me, reminding me that it's really early and almost no one is awake now.

"Kirishima? What's wrong?" He asks confusedly, grabbing me by the shoulders.

"If I tell you. You tell No One. Got it?"