I Am [NOT] A Monster (Suicidal AU/ KiriBaku Fanfic)

Panic Attack

(A few days prior (Friday night))
(It's supposed to be Monday present time)

{Kaminari's pov}

"Kirishima?! What the hell happened to you?!" I yelled looking at the redhead from the doorway of... Of Bakugou's dorm..? He looked so sad, so anxious, and most of all - so broken... His hair wasn't spiked up like normal, instead, it was sticking up in all sorts of directions. Like he was pulling at it.. His eyes were bright red and slightly swollen, and his face was stained with visible tear tracks.

"I- I- He- Baku- Dead- Gon-"

He stuttered out through hiccups and sobs, wiping his eyes continuously with his dark red and black striped shirt sleeve.

"Kirishima please, he's on -"

"Don't; Kirishima p-please, me! Y-you d-don't get it K-K-Kami! You won't get it! J-just leave me alone... P-please..." He yelled back, a hitch in his voice causing him to stutter a bit.

Just than, I heard people running down the hall. My head poping out of the room.

{Kirishima's pov}

He hasn't realized...
The blood..
The bottle...

I sobbed more, tucking my head in my knees after my mini outburst. The thumps from peoples feet hitting the carpeted floor filled my ears.

While Kaminari was looking at whoever was coming. I acted without a thought and quietly tip toed my way to the door. Only to shove him out fully and close it, locking it immediately.

I walked back to my place on Bakugou's bed, listening to the pounding on the hard wood door and practical begs to open up. But of course I didn't... Why would I..? They hadn't noticed how panicked Aizawa had seemed for the last couple of days.. The last few days Bakugou had 'gone on vacation'.

Yeah, Kami has caught me at my worst, most unmanly moments. Exactly like he did a few minutes ago...

So unmanly...

Just open up the door...

It'll help if you get this all off your chest.

"But...."

"Kirishima!! Open up the door now!!"

"Would they all believe me...."

________________________

-the next day-

I had fallen asleep on Bakugou's bed..

Heh...

I finally got some sleep...

Surprisingly......

I tiredly opened my eyes, my almost dead phone vibrating, waking me from my light sleep. I sat up and went to run a hand through my hair, stopping when I realized that it was still a mess. Gel held it up in random, weird looking spikes. It honestly reminded me of Bakugou's hair... The fluffy, blonde hair. Sometimes I just wanted to run a hand through it. It just looks so soft. But also super manly. Just like him...

{3rd persons pov}

The redhead calmly and quietly left Bakugou's room, remembering to bring the key he used to get in, aka the one he took the night bakugou tried to kill himself. He turned the corner to the stair case and came face to face with a black haired male.

"Sorry Kirishima, didn't see ya there." Sero said looking down at the other who had fallen. Reaching a hand out to help him up.

Kirishima nodded, whispering a tired 'sorry' as well, grabbing on to his hand before being pulled to his feet.

"Why are you down here? Isn't your dorm up— wait, isn't that one of Bakugou's sweaters?" The ravenette begun, quickly changing the topic to what Kirishima was wearing. Which happened to be one of Bakugou's hoodies and his own shorts.

Kirishima's head snapped down to his chest, not looking away for a few moments. Guess I forgot to take it off...

"Hellooo– earth to Kiri." A hand waving in front his face brought Kirishima back to his senses, his eyes blinking rapidly.

“Uhhh.........” Kirishima begun, not knowing what to say.

"Also, what happened last night..? When you shoved Kami out of the room."

"O-Oh.. nothing... Just, wanted to be alone..."

{Kiri's pov}

Out of everyone in our friend group, I feel Sero is the most trust worthy.. Not that I don't trust the others!! But like, he's not someone who'd make fun of me or constantly make jokes about my feelings if I asked him not to. I don't think he'd do it even if I didn't ask him not to.

'I mean.. I guess I'll tell him... It is the weekend anyways..'

"Hey dude, can I tell you something.. and maybe show you something afterwards too..? I was gonna show Kami a little while ago.. But I ended up exploding a bit because of a joke he made.. Then I just decided against it.." I explained scratching the back of my neck sheepishly.

"Yeah, I'm always here for you. Also, Kami was telling me something about him making a joke about Baku, then your mood just entirely changing... He said something about you feeling like a different, more explosive person. And that it kinda reminded him of Bakugou. He also said that you wanted to tell him or show him something, but never did." Sero said, one of his arms resting on my shoulder.

"Yeah.. but anywho, come." I ordered in a soft tone, grabbing his t-shirt sleeve before guiding him back to my room.

- Tiny Timeskip -

We got to my room and I closed the door, turning around to see Sero picking up the loose pieces of paper littering the floor. I immediately ran over and grab them, shoving them all on my dresser as Sero only watched in confusion.

"Not yet.." I muttered and turned around, glancing at him before sitting on my bed.

"Sit.." I said and pointed at the spot on the bed in front of me. Watching as he did.

"What was that about?" He asked and pointed to my dresser.

"I still don't know if I should tell anyone about that... And even if I did. I wanna tell you this first. But you got promise me, swear on your life. That you won't tell anyone."

"Kiri, come on! I promise, if it's this important to you. I will not tell a single soul whatever you're gonna tell me." Sero promised, sticking out a pinky.

I gave a short smile and took his pinky, wrapping mine around it. "Good."