I Am [NOT] A Monster (Suicidal AU/ KiriBaku Fanfic)

"But What If..?"

We unwrapped our fingers and I sighed. I wasn't ready at all.. I was so worried that I started looking around my room, looking at everything from the walls to the eraser on the floor like it was all so interesting. "okay...." I started, already regretting my decision. But I can't back out now.

"Dude, just spit it out! I promised ya I'd say nothing! I won't make fun of you either!" Sero had kinda yelled, making me jump slightly. I nodded and gave an unsure look before speaking once again.

"I- Ilikebakugou—" I said hoping he didn't understand, but the smile that appeared on his face said otherwise.

"Yes! I knew it! Kami owes me twenty five bucks. God he was so dumb for betting on this!" He cheered happily, a fist raised into the air as he celebrated his mini victory.

I was shocked. 'They literally bet that over the fact that I have feelings for bakugou?!'

"W- the hell man! How'd you know?!" I yelled and pouted. Slightly glaring at the ravenette who was in front of me as he rose a brow.

"It's obvious! The way you act around him! I've caught you more than once just tryna catch some glances at him! Also the way you act when you're around him! It all just gives away the fact that you like him! And I bet he likes you—" I gave him a light punch on the shoulder, causing him to be quiet.

"Sero, you sound like Midoriya with the way you're rambling." I pointed out. He nodded and smiled, giving a quiet 'ah true' in response.

"So.. can I show you something else then...?" I asked getting serious.

He looked at me questionably and nodded, watching closely as I stood. Going back to the drawer I shoved the papers in. I uncrumpled one paper making sure it was the note before crumpling it back up loosely and walked back over to my bed, dropping the papers carelessly. "Don't touch."

He nodded again and looked up at me, indicating that I should tell him what's up.

"So.. remember when we were told to get to our dorms, and everyone between the first and third floor should go to a friend's room..?" I asked and watched as he nodded.

I sat back down on my bed, making sure to move the papers before hand.

"Well.. I didn't make it back to my dorm since I left the common area last... So I just slipped into an unoccupied room, which so happened to be the one next to Bakugou's dorm, which is on the third floor. Doesn't seem like an issue, I know... I don't think you realized it, but Bakugou wasn't in the commons.. Either way. I heard multiple people's footsteps and the sound of squeaky wheels, and when I pressed my ear to the door. I heard Mr Aizawa say that HE was found 'like this'... Aizawa had left with whoever the others were and Bakugou—"

Sero rose a hand, so I stopped and let him speak.

"Hold up, I thought Bakugou didn't wanna use the dorms. Because he isn't 'lazy' like all of us." He asked, I nodded in reply.

"That's exactly what I thought. But let me finish." He nodded and let me continue.

"Anywho, that's why classes were canceled... Because HE, who I presume to be Bakugou, is in the hospital and quite possib—" I stopped. Not wanting to finish my sentence out of pure fear that what I say could be true...

"Quite possibly...?" The ravenette mimicked, trying to get me to finish the sentence.

"Quite possibly dead...."

Sero Immediately wrapped his arms around me, enveloping me in a tight, comforting hug. I hugged back, feeling tears begin to rush down my cheeks.

"Dude..."

"J-Just look at t-the papers...." I stuttered, letting him go and wiping my face.

- Timeskip brought to you by brain dead Denki -

(3rd persons pov)

Sero finished reading the note and couldn't believe it... He had asked Kirishima if he drew the pictures because of how he's been feeling. But immediately Kirishima told him he didn't. Sero couldn't believe that behind all the insults and attitude, was secretly a broken boy. A broken boy who seemed too broken to be fixed. The fact that Bakugou, one of the smartest and strongest students in U.A. only needed that small push, to drive him to this.... Suicide.....

Kirishima sat silently on his bed, watching as Sero blinked repeatedly and reread what was wrote on the paper.

"B-Bakugou.... Wrote this..?" Sero stuttered in full shock. Kirishima nodding sadly.

"I... He knows we're here for him.. right...? He knows he could've just asked one of us to talk about it all... He didn't have to bottle it all up until it got to this..! What if I was a better friend, and actually stood up for him when Mineta was going off.. He'd still be here..! He'd still be here training hard to be the number one hero.! He'd—"

"Sero!" Kirishima yelled, snapping the ravenette out of thought. "It wasn't your fault! None of this was your fault! Please..! Stop blaming yourself..! Stop blaming yourself the way I am! I promise you dude, you're an amazing friend and I don't want you beating yourself up over this." He plead desperately, wanting to scream, cry, and hug Sero. He could feel the bit of tension there was in the air. But tried his best to ignore it.

"But what if—"

"No but's bud. No blaming yourself in any way." Kiri ordered, hugging the other.

Sero only hugged back, trying his best to keep his composure. "So, this is why you've been acting differently for the last few days..?" He asked, pulling away from the hug.

The redhead nodded with a yawn. He was really tired, but like any other night, he knew he wouldn't be able to sleep.

- That night -

They hung out all day in Kirishima's dorm before Sero fell asleep on Kiri's bed, so Kirishima let the other be and walked out of his room with a pillow. Locking the door behind him, he made his way down to the commons where he spent the rest of the night alone with his cat video's.