The Sacred Memoirs of A Young Adult: I Will Always Love You

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The thought of you used to make me feel good inside. Now, my stomach turns and my limbs and muscles shaking with anger. I used to cry because I loved you. Now I cry because I hate you. That's right. I hate you and everything tied to you. You're a selfish, low life cunt. And now I desperately wish, more than ever that you read this.

I want nothing to do with you from now on. Not in the present or any future. If I ever see you in public, just know that if I'm not strangling you I am using so much of my strength, Christian values and willpower to keep from doing so. The thoughts I have of you are not loving anymore. They are nasty, mean, gory. And I feel ashamed that I think these thoughts of you, sinning against my God by thinking such thoughts.

I'm angry. Yes I'm angry. I'm angry that you turned on me. I'm angry that everything I assumed I knew about you was wrong and that you proved me wrong. I fought against a whole fucking world for you! Believed that there were good reasons why you do the things you do. That it wasn't you, but the people you enveloped yourself in. But no. You're probably worse than them. I respect them way more than I respect you. Let that sink in.

I was the one who put you high up on a pedestal and pulled you right down with double the force and vigour. Even if I didn't, the thought of that alone makes me happy and satisfied. Because one day you will pay for all the pain you have caused. You will. You will.

You step on people's feelings to benefit your own. You made me forget the Queen that I am and trampled on my self worth. But never again. One day, you are going to find a girl you fall deeply in love with and everything you've done to every girl who ever loved you, though our stories are different, will happen to you. And you will feel much pain. To think I used to pray for you. For your well being. What have you turned me into? I've never been able to not forgive someone. Congratulations! You've made the cut! The first ever person to make my dry, empty list of people I cannot forgive. Aren't you proud? Another trophy you must be proud of.

I can't imagine you not being proud. After all, you've lived 20 whole years lying to people and forgetting the consequences of hurting them. You got away with it for too long. Far too long.

Why can't you just leave me alone? You're a lingering shadow in my life and you don't even know. Maybe all the things I said weren't exactly true. Maybe I don't wish that you face an ill lucked fate. Maybe I don't wish to see the life being sucked out of your body and maybe I don't really fantasise about doing incredibly sadistic things to you. Because I am not like that. I don't like violence and I don't believe in turning the other cheek. But the fact that I considered doing all of that should tell you something. Again, I would never. But don't get it twisted. I still want nothing to do with you. Now once and for all, do me a favour and leave my palace. Have a nice life, sir. See your way out.