Fearless

Chapter 9- The Very First Page

(it's been a while since I updated this, but I've been writing a lot lately, so expect more frequent updates)

December 4th

Taylor

I'm so nervous. I have to admit that I'm excited to see Karlie again, but I've never left Violet for more than an hour before, so this is new territory. I want to spend time with her more than anything but I'm putting so much at risk and I'm starting to think it may not be worth it.

"What if my management find out? They're just gonna try and make Karlie disappear like they did with Emily! Why should I bother even dragging her into something that would just hurt her in the end."

I sigh as I look to Taylor. I'm pacing the room with Violet in my arms, the five month old baby totally unaware of her mom in crisis. I haven't dated someone in a long time and now the dynamic is totally different because there's a baby involved and I don't know how to balance worrying about my team and worrying about Violet.

"You're such a drama queen, Swift!" He rolls his eyes as he lifts the baby from my arms and I sigh, throwing myself down on the sofa. "What if I'm out and Violet wants me or she needs fed and won't take a bottle! I don't want my kid to starve?!" I know I'm over exaggerating. Violet is a good baby and she always takes her bottle or the boob, she's never had an issue with either, but I'm so scared to leave her. This whole situation in general is scary. 

"This little angel never causes any trouble for her uncle Tay, so you can stop worrying about her and face the real issue here." I lift the pillow that I'm using to hide my face and glare at him as he smirks, "you're nervous because you like her." I groan again as I pull my pillow back down over my face. "It's too late to back out now, you're already going to be late, so get your butt off of the sofa and go!" Taylor grabs my hand and pulls me up and I sigh, he's right, it would be horrible of me to back out now.

"Promise you'll text me if anything happens?" I'm nervous about seeing Karlie again but I don't know if I'm more nervous about that or leaving Violet. "I promise, now go!" He pushes me towards the door and I can feel the nerves building as I grab my coat and my purse. I check myself one last time in the mirror and straighten out my shirt. I decided to go casual and wear jeans, a plain shirt and my boots, but now I'm starting to think it's too casual.

"Don't get in your head, just go." I sigh, hearing Taylor's voice behind me and I pull my coat on before walking back over to the sofa, grabbing my purse from the seat beside him and pressing a kiss to Violet's cheek. "Be good for uncle Tay, baby. Mommy will be home soon."

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I park on the street and as I turn my engine off, the butterflies in my stomach go crazy. "She's only human, it's gonna be fine." I sigh, chastising and reassuring myself at the same time. I know if I think about it any more I'm gonna make my nerves worse, so I grab my purse and jump out of the car. Karlie texted me the address of the coffee shop and we agreed to meet here but I'm a little late, so I hope she doesn't mind too much.

I lift my head as I walk through the door and I'm engulfed by the warmth as I step in from the cold December air. I look up and I feel my stomach tighten as I scan the room for the taller girl, a soft smile taking over my features when I spot Karlie standing up to greet me. "Hi." I smile nervously and the butterflies in my stomach explode as Karlie wraps me in a warm hug.

She's dressed simply too in a t-shirt and jeans but she still looks so elegant and put together. Her hair is a natural brown now and it suits her, the contrast between the brown of her hair and the soft almond of her skin making the bright green of her eyes pop.