Fearless

Chapter 6- Opening Night

October 1st

Taylor

This is the day we've been waiting for since the album was released, opening night. I'm a mix between scared and excited, but mainly I'm absolutely terrified by the fact that I'm going to spend the next fourteen months travelling with my three month old. Tonight we open the show in Nashville and I've never been more scared in my entire life. This is my first headlining tour, one of the biggest moments in my career, and it's almost unbelievable that in a matter of hours I get to play to a sold out crowd.

I'm super lucky because everyone on my team and in my band, they're like family to me. I don't have my parents here, but spending the next fourteen months with my best friends doesn't sound like a bad plan. Of course, I also have my tour mom, as she has dubbed herself even despite the small age gap, opening for me and Kellie even offered to watch Violet whilst I'm onstage which is lifesaving because currently she's been kept in my dressing room with my assistant because her little ears are still so sensitive she can't be too close to the stage without ear defenders.

So, in whole, I'm apprehensive of what's to come the next few months but I can't wait to make memories and have new experiences with my precious little angel.

"Taylor?" There's a knock on my door and I look up as Kellie pops her head around the door. "Hey, how're you doing?" She smiles as she plops herself down on the sofa beside me. "I'm good, the little ones napping and I'm just taking in the calm before the storm." I laugh as I glance over to Violet napping in her stroller in the corner and then back to Kellie. "She's so precious, I can hardly stand it." She pouts and laughs as she follows my line of sight and I grin as I watch my sleeping baby.

"Anyway, what's going on? Is everything okay?" I give her a warm smile and she nods, "I just thought I'd check in with you. This is a lot to handle with such a small baby." I smile and nod, "I'm overwhelmed for sure. I don't wanna make a mistake and ruin the rest of her life, but I know if I give up on my career now then I'd be sacrificing a lot more than if I kept going." I sigh, I'd usually talk to my mom about all of this, she always knows what to do, but I already know her opinion on this.

"You're going to be okay. Sure, it's going to be hard, but you're strong and you'll make it through this." I smile and give her a hug, Kellie has become one of my closest friends recently. "Anyway, is that man of yours coming tonight?" She smirks and wiggles her eyebrows, trying to lighten the mood. I laugh and bite my lip, Taylor and I have become really close, not relationship close, but nobody else has to know that. "He is, he's coming to tonight's show." I invited him the other day and he happily accepted and even offered to hang out with Violet whilst I'm onstage. It's really cute, ever since we went to the carnival a couple of weeks ago, he dotes on Violet. He even won her a giant stuffed bear which now lives in her crib which I finally managed to build in her nursery.

"Shh, honey. It's okay, there's no need for this noise." I frown as the baby starts crying in her stroller, signalling to whoever is nearby that she's awake and wants to be cuddled. I scoop her up and into my arms, shushing her cries as I sit back down. "There we go, pretty girl. Mommy's right here." I coo as I kiss her forehead and she eventually calms down. "You guys are the cutest." Kellie laughs and I smile as Violet stares at her.

There's another knock on the door and this time Taylor's head pops around the doorframe. "Hey babe." He smiles as he walks inside and I stand up to greet him, balancing Violet as he wraps us both in a hug and I rest my head on his chest for a couple of seconds before pressing a shy kiss to his lips.

"There's my favourite munchkin." He grins as he takes Violet from me and I smile as we both sit down. "She just woke up so she's still a little grumpy." I laugh as I pat down what little hair she has on her head as she stares at him with a pout and tired blue eyes. "Are you grumpy, Lottie?" He makes a funny face at her, trying to get her to smile as he uses his personal nickname for her. "Do you need me to keep the munchkin tonight?" Kellie smiles and I nod, "she probably won't last through the entire show, but I think we're going to keep her by the side of the stage tonight and see how well she does, but I'm anticipating for her to end up back here."