Crushed [editing]

Chapter 6

"Lori, just please." James said trying to take off her bra.
"James this is to get Xander jealous not to turn you on." I say
"You got to attempt you're horny too."he says
"I'm turned on by you but I'm in love with Xander so just stop."I say
"I'm doing you a favour now do me one." He says
"Then I'll bring you back."I say.
"I hate how you do that, how you need someone to do something for you and they do it but you never say thank you or give them something in return." He says.
"You sound like Xander." I say.
"Thank you?." James said being sarcastically.
"Your very welcome." I say smiling and getting off of him. Right as I try and get off of him were in a awkward position I see Xander crying on the deck. I'm so mad at him right now that I don't even care that he's crying. I'm pissed at everyone. James and I get down and go and get cake walking right past Xander. James follows  and he doesn't get anything. We sit out front on the porch and I eat James just talks to me Im not really listening casue I'm to focused on Xander crying  at his little sister birthday party.

"Excuse me for one moment." I say getting up at throwing my plate away i walk over to Xander and he runs down the stairs. I start tearing up because him crying is so depressing.
"Babe please just stop." I say running after him.
"Don't fucking call me babe." I say.
"Baby, stop I only was trying to get you jealous."I say.
"By cheating on me, you're a slut, Lori. Straight up s-u-l-t! SLUT!" he said screaming he spelt out slut and i start balling my eyes out.
"You crying isn't going to do anything this time, Lori. I'm done." he said stopping and turning around everyone now outside listening to our arguement. I hug him but he doesn't hug me back.
"Let me the fuck go, I hate you." He says pushing me.
"I'm so sorry, babe."I say wiping my tears.
"okay lets get this straight, I'm not your babe. I'm nothing to you and your nothing to me. MOVE ON. I'm going to florida with my parents so you'll need to find somewhere to stay. Were over, I'm nice enough that you can live with us but don't call me babe or anything other than my name. Think of me as a roommate. Or just don't think of me at all because I've had enough of you. I can't even talk to a girl without you being bitchy. I can't even touch you without you thinking I want to have sex." He says.
"Are you breaking up with me?" I ask.
"Yes, yes I am." He says.
"Can I have a hug at least." I ask.
"No." he said walking to his mother. I think he told her she starts hugging him and wiping his tears away. They walk over to his father and take the keys. They walk right pass me to the car and told him to leave. Who knows where he's going.
James walks over to me, and asks if i'm okay because i'm crying.
"Yes, James i'm fine I need to bring you home now." I say.
"Okay?" he said confused. We walk to my car and I buckle and start the car I drive like 10 minutes down the road to bring him back to work. He gets out without even saying bye. I back out and drive to my dads.
"Dad?" I yell.
"I'm in my room" He yells back.
"Can I come in?" I ask.
"Yes." He says as I open the door and he my dad laying there.
"Can I come back home for a month or so.?"  I ask.
"Sure your moms been writing to you, I don't read them that's your private stuff so I put them in your room." He says really calm he's probably not drunk right now that's why.
"Thank you." I said going to my room and opening all 4.

'Hello Honey,

I'm so depressed that you didn't write me back. Your dad called me the other day telling me you moved with your boyfriend. What's his name? Is he cute? Is he good to you? He better be or I'll beat him and end up in here again. I love you baby girl.

Love, Mom'

I then open another one.

'Lori,

I'm getting out in a week. So excited can't wait to see you. I can't go to dad's house so meet me at my house. Oh by the way. I got a phone call 5 days ago, Aunt Annie died in a car accident. Uncle Jim has Ella. But he's going into the army, so were taking Ella when I get out. Love you.

Love, Mom'

'Dear my baby girl,

Lori I just wanted to say I love you and that I miss you. Please write back. I know your probably mad at me. Which I don't understand why you would be but I hope your safe. I love you so so so so so so so much. See you soon.

Love,

Laurie/ Mom'

The last one.

'Lori,

I've been crying for days over Aunt Annie. I can't sleep, you won't message me back nothing goes right I just want to know if your okay. That's all please please please please please write me back as soon as you can. Hope your summers going good also. Love you to the moon and back forever and always.

Love, Mom.'

I take them and leave. I go to to Xander's and he's home of course. I go start to my room without saying anything I honestly try and not cry but it's so hard because my mother and I used to be best friends. When she gets out of jail I hope we move far way. I wanna start over and go to a different school and pretend like I'm a new person. I actually want to have friends and be active, I've always wanted to play volleyball. My mom was a cheerleader when she was my age but cheerleading is for bitches and whores. I'm not very girly most people say but I honestly could care less.