Crushed [editing]

Chapter 13

Xander and I stay the night with Ella so that she doesn't have to be alone. I try and act strong but losing my mother is probably the hardest thing that's ever happened. When we all decide to go to bed Xander and I sleep on the couch. I keep thinking I wish my uncle was awake so I can see him. He doesn't know my mothers gone, for good. I lay there cuddling with Xander still crying. He rubs my back and kissed my forehead. He falls asleep about twenty minutes later and I just lay there.

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We we wake up I can't remember when I fell asleep.
"I'm still tired." I said looking at the clock next to the tv. It's only 6:56 a.m.
"Go back to bed I'll stay up with Ella." Xander said. Then a doctor walks in and asked to talk to me on the hall and she brings me to my uncle. He's laying down eyes half open. He's all swollen and scratched up. I stand next to him and cry.
"Don't cry." He said putting his hand up to hold my hand. I stand there looking at him and he asks how everyone is.
"Oh everyone's fine, uncle don't worry." I lie.
"Oh goody." He laughed. I fake a giggle and his doctor walks in.
"Uncle I'm going to see, Ella." I said blowing him kisses.
"Okay." He said waving.
I go to Ella's room and Ella's sleeping so Xander and I leave and go get washed up and stuff.
Xander and I take a shower together and I don't even let him touch me one bit. He knows that I'll flip if he does. Cause this is a depressing time for me and I just want to curl up and die. But I have Ella so I can't do that. When we get out of the shower I grab my towel dry off and throw my hair up into a messy bun, because I hate my hair wet. I forgot clothes so I go up to my room and put on a plaid red and black baggy shirt and leggings. I get knee high cute socks and pull them up all the way. Then put my boots on. I go down stairs and grab a brush and start brushing my hair. I pack some clothes and stuff when I'm all ready I go down to Xander's room and he's not done so I lay on his bed and think about everything that's happening and I start crying again. Xander lays with me after he's done and pushes my hair away from my face and wiped the tears away even though I can't stop. I get up finally and I drive to the hospital. Xander goes and sees Ella and I go so my uncle. I walk in and he's crying.

"What wrong uncle?" I ask walking closer to him.
"You told me everyone was fine." He says.
"I didn't want to make you feel bad you were in pain and if you knew that my mom died you would stress and depressed and I don't want to see you like this." I said.
"Well I found out anyway, I'm very sorry Lor, it's all my fault." He said
"No it's not it's no ones fault it was a accident." I said crying.