(Part two of the Bisonette series)
After a long first semester, Sage, finally captain of the Howard Bisonette has to deal with the trials and tribulations that come along with the harsh task, the new competition (and of course, Carmen), along with t...
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"You know what I️ just realized? You've been on two baecations with two different guys in less than six months." Alisha piped in from beside me. Claire, Alisha, Nia, and I️ were all seated in my bedroom as I️ packed my bags for my brief trip to New York. Final season was officially over and soon we'd all be making our ways back to our designated home grounds for the holiday season. I️, however, had to make a pit stop in New York for Mike's 25th birthday.
I️ glanced at Alisha wondering where exactly she was going with the statement. She sensed my confusion in her words and quickly added on to her statement. "I️ mean all power to you. I️ love to see a woman comfortable in bouncing back from a toxic relationship." Alisha clarified. From beside me, Nia sucked her teeth. "Just say she's a hoe and keep it pushing." Nia responsed. If anyone else had said it, it would've been automatic hands. But I️ knew Nia and I️ knew she, of all people, would be the last one calling me a hoe. I️ flicked her off, tossing a pair of socks at her face. "If it makes you feel better I️ don't think it's hoing. And even if it is, I️ feel like you're allowed to do it. You're a sophomore in college." Claire added onto the convo. It was always nice to have Claire around because she was the voice of reason in many situations. She always spoke from an unbiased point of view and her advice was always necessary.
"You think you're gonna fuck him again?" Nia questioned.
"Oh my gosh, Nia. You literally have the worst potty mouth ever." Alisha complained. Nia shrugged her shoulders like she normally did whenever this conversation came about. "Yeah you really need to work on that. And to answer your question, yes I️ do." I responded blatantly. I️ couldn't even front and act like him and I️ were about to keep it real friendly and cute. It was his birthday for Pete's sake, and though sex isn't a gift, it's a great addition to any celebration. Besides, I felt comfortable enough around Mike, and I think that said a lot about how treated me before, during, and after the time we were intimate. I wasn't going to go as far as to compare him to my previous sexual escapades, but if I did, the people in my past would be very upset at the ranking. "I'm proud of you, sis. Get it how you live." Nia responded.
"So what you like him or something?" Alisha questioned.
That was the million dollar question that even I️ couldn't answer myself. I was overly aware of the fact that I️ found Mike attractive, and at the fact that I️ enjoyed his company, but something in me was super scared of the reprocussions that could arise from us being together. An even bigger part of me had fear that Mike was just using me for sex, and it didn't help that I️ was willing to give him that. I️ never voiced those concerns out loud because I️ was scared that the girls would judge me for even continuing to hang out with him knowing that his motives could even possibly be negative. So I️ kept that inside of me and proceeded to tell everyone I️ don't know whenever I️ was asked that question. However, at this point I'm sure everyone was over my indecisiveness and really just wanted me to be upfront about my emotions so they could advice accordingly. But I️ didn't think I️ was ready for that right now.
