Just Hoping... // Hyunjin x Jisung fanfic [DISCONTINUE]

11-12-2018

 Jisung just stared coldly at the window, mind wandering further than his lost eyes. He felt terribly miserable, and today wasn't helping any of emotions to get better or at least to get away. He knew that he wasn't supposed to be drifting off from class, but he had his own reason. A shattered heart, hopelessly waiting for him or anyone to fix it again. But wishes were still remain a dream, and his dreams were never meant to be finished. 

"Hey, is everything okay?" Seungmin's voice suddenly came out from nowhere. Jisung turned around to stare at the slightly honeyskin boy while trying to come up with any expressions instead of sadness. Even if he tried to smile, his pale face show no happiness with the heart-breaking smile. He looked so fake, even he knew that like a fact. 

But your beautiful face is not meant to be sad. Hyunjin's voice suddenly echoed inside. That's what Hyunjin would say to him when he failed baking a cake for his family's anniversary. He wished that Hyunjin would say that to him again, holding him again like the good old time.

That's why it is called the good old time.

"I'm fine, is there anything you need?" Jisung said, trying to add sunlight and glitters in every single word. But Jisung wasn't good at lying, and Seungmin wasn't that easy to be tricked. "I'm fine, but you aren't. I know that something is bothering you, and I can see that it is difficult to handle for you. Tell me, please." Jisung really want to share his thoughts, his pain, but something is stopping him. He felt so ready, but when it's the time, he just couldn't make the first step. 

So he just kept silence...

Seungmin sighed. "Look, I know that maybe you aren't ready. Take your time. Everyone is here if you need help." He said before leaving the class. "Oh and hurry, class is starting in 5 minutes." Jisung quickly grabbed his books before running out to their next class.

ÚNÙ

It was P.E class actually. Jisung didn't know why the fuck did he mess up with his Wednessday schedule. But he doesn't do sport actually. He just sat at the stadium, watching the basketball team playing at half of the court. But something strange kept tingling in his stomach.

Felix is playing againts Changbin today.

It had never happened before. It's either Felix watching and cheering for Binnie or both of them play in the same team. They love each other too much to even fight againts each other, even in games. But today...

everything is turning upside down. 

"Jeongin, what happened?" Jisung asked. But the little maknae just sat silently, his head low and he's all curled up. Jeongin had never been like this before. "Jeongin, seriously, what the hell is going on?" "Felix and Changbin got into a fight. That's all." Jisung was more than shocked. Felix and Changbin had all always been the happiest couple in their league of gays, but this situation is unpredictable.

Han's mouth just... literally hung open. Felix an Changbin looked like they gonna rip each other s' throat if their team lost. Like literally.
"What about you Jeongin, what happened?" Jeongin sighed. He and Chan just broke up, a couple hours ago. He saw that Chan lately was really suspicious, and then this really gossiping girl just told him. Dead ass. Jeongin then argued with Chan and then, the two went on their own path.

Lord seriously, what kind of weather is God giving today? Everything is literally fucked up. Very fucked up.

Han just sat next to a lifeless Jeongin and watch the game. At least now, he's not alone. But he doesn't want his friends to suffer. Is it because of him that their relationship start falling apart? Han doesn't want his friends to be involved, so he quickly left the stadium.

Please don't let Hyunjin involved as well.

Thank God Han found Seungmin and Hyunjin talking with each other. Nothing wrong I hope. "Hey Hyunjin, can I talk to you for a sec?" Hyunjin frowned but he got up anyway. Han's heart started beating again. It has been so long since their last time together as friends, which also means the last time he was with him while crushing on him. "Hey, what's wrong?" Hyunjin's voice spoke up. Han has always love listening to his voice when they called through the phone, now, he just missed it so much. " Did anything happen, you know, between you and anyone?" "Well nothing at the moment, except that you ruined my moment!!" Hyunjin scolded. Han's mouth and eyes widened. "What are you planning?" Hyunjin chuckled at his friend's behavior. "Confessing of course. I'm showing you that I'm not afraid anymore." Han's heart now really shattered. Oh, he's really doing it now. "Oh, okay, I'm sorry." He replied quietly before leaving the area. He will now be happy, there's nothing I need anymore.

"Seulgi, Irene!!" Han ran toward his friends. "Is school still killing you?" "Yeah, Ms. Hanson is a piece of shit today." Irene giggled and talked to Han while Seulgi just sat there. She knew the reason why his friend came. She knew his purpose. Irene was having fun until she noticed that Seulgi was being quiet the whole time. "Love, what's wrong?" Irene asked. Seulgi just sighed and quickly got up to Han's side.

"I'm telling you this thing once, and I'm not going to repeat myself...

Don't even think about trying."

Irene came running to his girlfriend and pulled her away. "What are you doing Seulgi? You're scaring him." "He fears nothing. That's why he's trying to stay with us." Seulgi said coldly.

"Don't waste your chance, everything is worthy. If you have determination, then bare with it. Everything pays off."

Han just stood their before their sight blurred from his vision. His friends are no longer there.

What does she mean by bear with it? What could I expect from bearing with my nightmare.

May every rainbow comes after a storm. But this storm is too devastated to keep on hold of the boat.

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