Just Hoping... // Hyunjin x Jisung fanfic [DISCONTINUE]

2-12-2018

In the end, the stars choose destruction over life...

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I came to school today with a super exciting Hyunjin. It lighted up my mood a bit but I remembered, he's happy about Seungmin, not me. I just faked a good smile and kept walking, keeping my head low in cased if a tears accidently fall from my eye, at least he wouldn't see it. On the way, he kept telling me how amazing that boy is. His smile, his cuteness and his laugh... and the more he talked about him, the more my heart chipped. But at least he's happy, I'm happy...

for now.

We got to school and I saw Seungmin entering the locker hallway. Hyunjin just give a shy smile while I just simply waved at him and left to my locker. I truly hate him, but he had nothing wrong to do with me, it's me who is so wrong...

I hate myself...

I came back with a smiling Hyunjin. "He actually say hi to me OMG!! He's so cute and kind!"- Hyunjin said while jumping like a little girl getting her favorite doll. I just smiled and quickly got back in my class, not wanting to hear anymore. I don't want my heart to burst and crumble into ashes. I ran and accidentally bump into a boy. I looked up and saw it was Jeongin. His books and papers flew all over the ground. "Oh god, I'm so sorry Innie, I will-" "Nah, it's okay let me help him instead, I saw that you're not having a good time." It was Chan hyung. I quickly bowed down and say sorry to Jeongin will running to my class. Such a boyfriend material, while I don't even have anyone to considered if I will be waking up the next day. I sat at the back of the classroom, not wanting to focused on anything. My heart just ached in my chest and I felt that I could mentally breakdown at any second. But I realized that I have a mission to finish even if I want to throw myself off the cliff. 

Helping my friend to fall in love with him...

I literally didn't pay attention to the bell when I felt someone nudged me on the shoulder, I turned over to see Seungmin and Minho. "Hurry up, we're having chemistry class right now." I suddenly popped back to reality and quickly gathered my supplies. "Oh sorry, I didn't notice" and I quickly got of and walked with them to the lab. They were talking cheerfully and I felt like being the third wheel, so I just stay quiet and try to remember a bit details about him, but my brain kept telling me no, so I gave up and let my mind took control. 

When we reached to the lab, the teacher told us to split into group and I ended up in a group with Seungmin, Minho and a boy with a deep, raspy voice. (A/N: Let's just all considered that all of them are the same age except Woojin, Bang Chan and I.N) I just let them do most of the job while I drift into the nightmare realm that is slowly eating me from the inside to the outside. When class is over, I finally decided to come over to talk to Seungmin with him for a bit. 

"Hey Seungmin, I want to introduce you to a friend of mine" "Sure, is that the handsome boy called Hyunjin? Yeah I met him yesterday" he smiled kindly to me. No wonder Hyunjin loves him so much. "Yes, and maybe we could get to know more about each other? We can meet up somewhere..." "Sure but not today, I have plans with my family, but tomorrow would be nice." "Sure at the school cafe tomorrow ok?" He nodded and bid farewell to me. I was glad that we didn't go out today, because me heart might breakdown at any seconds and I couldn't excuse myself to leave. I had accepted the job. So I got out of school and I saw Hyunjin waiting for me. I first thought that he was waiting for me, but no of course not stupid, expectations never meet reality. "So did he said yes?" he asked in excitement. "Yes... but he's busy with his family business today, he said tomorrow is good." He looked a bit disappointed but he quickly brushed it aside. "Ok, I'll see you tomorrow, ok?" I just nodded and quickly left.