Don't Forget(Chrissy Costanza)

Chapter 21

*Kate's PoV*
"I can't believe you are actually working with her!" I laughed and drank another sip of vodka.
"Why not? She is great at what she does..." Defended Natalia.
"Because she is not honest maybe, she is cruel, and mean, and likes to feel better than others..." I started saying all those things I knew were rights about her.
"You haven't seen her in years... What tells you she hasn't changed?"
"People don't change Natalia. She has been a bitch since I met her... Why would she change?!" I asked starting to get over the conversation.
"Love can reveal someone's deepest secrets. But sure I just hope you could meet her now... She is so sweet." Natalia ended her glass and fell silent for what I felt forever.
"That's a no. Sorry." I spat.
"It's cool. If I were her I wouldn't let anyone see me in my worst state." She said and I started thinking.
Is she suffering?
My heart felt like if it was being crushed with some weird feeling. Knowing that she isn't okay just isn't right, it just feels wrong.
"Maybe you are right." I said.
What the heck is this feeling?

*Chrissy's PoV*
Soph: So... You are going to run away again?
Chrissy: At least for now. I can't look at her.
Soph: She is looking for you.
Chrissy: She is looking for someone that loves her.
Soph: Don't you love her?
Chrissy: I can't love her. No matter what I do she will fear me.
Soph: Do you love her?
Chrissy: You can't love if you are dead.
Soph: Do you love her?
Chrissy: I do. But I must forget her. She forgot about me.
Soph: It wasn't her intention. You know it.
Chrissy: I do. That's why. If I somehow manage to make her remember me... She will eventually forget about me again.
Soph: She is in love with you.
Chrissy: She is in love with a feeling. She loves knowing someone loves her. She doesn't love me.
Soph: Wait.

My phone rang, I looked at the caller ID and sighed as I answered the call.
"Why did you call me?" I said with a lot of anger.
"Go for the note." She ordered.
"I lost it." I said getting out of the bathroom, not today.
"Don't lie. You aren't capable of losing it." She argued.
"I still have it. But I can't read it. Anything that reminds me of her... Kills me." I started crying.
"CHRISSY! Don't leave me now." Started yelling Soph but I could no longer answer.
My thoughts were back to her.
"I wish I had been honest since day one." I confessed hugging her.
"It's cool. You can't be perfect." She hugged back.
We were lying on her bed, after a long day at school we could finally get to her place to rest and just be us.
"But I hurt you." I felt a tear go down my face.
She noticed and went to dry my tear and leave me a soft kiss on the lips.
"And I forgave you. I promise. We are okay." She gave me another short kiss and smiled.
I hugged her and then, I knew. I was completely in love with Kate.

"Please get away from me..." The last words she said to me sounded through all the walls of my room.

"I CAN'T GO ON WITH THIS!" I screamed and fell to the ground, crying violently and trying to scream her words away.

I had to leave. She can't see me.

Her life is better without me.

"So you are saying we are going to Spain?" Asked Natalia very confused.
"Yes. Tomorrow. We should get some of your hometown energy... To write from the heart." I tried to make up an explanation.
"It's cool. Madrid is a great place to stay. You can finally meet Alba..." Offered my singer.
"So you haven't told her the truth..." I figured.
"Of course not. I can't lose her friendship, I rather have a friend than a girlfriend." Explained.
"I don't hear you convinced enough..." I murmured.
"I don't care..." She started thinking.

"I spent the night with Kate yesterday." She just said it. And I felt my blood boil in my veins.
"WHAT?!" I screamed in anger.
"Chill woman I didn't do anything with her." She defended herself laughing.
"What did you do then?" I asked her trying to keep my chill.
"We just talked... In a chill way... I know why you do want to go to Spain. I'm not stupid." Damn it Nat, you and your smart ass.
I lowered my head. Busted...
"I can't blame you. I was running away from home too... I can't look at Alba without feeling like everything is moving faster than light. I can't think straight near her... So... I am also hiding." Confessed my Spanish company.
"Here" I got closer to her and hugged her. "We both need this."
She hugged back and for a second, I begged for us to stay this way. Hugging Natalia made me feel, at least for a while, that I wasn't that broken.
We were hiding together, we are broken in someways. But she is helping me get mi mind out of my shit and use my feelings in music.
She is better at producing than me.
Just kidding, I'm the best.
"So what will we do in Spain?" Asked Natalia grabbing her guitar.
"I don't know... I got permission to use a studio at Universal Spain... In Madrid so maybe record a little while." I explained.
"Cool... Writing near Alba helps me to write the best songs." She smiled.
I smiled back, for her. I liked looking at Natalia when she speaks of this girl, Alba.
She is in love with her. I hope she had the courage to tell her what she feels.
"The other day I heard this song, it shows how I feel towards Alba and how you feel with Kate." She started playing some chords and as soon as I could, I started recording and motioned her to go to the mic.
Even if it's a cover. I'm sure she will make it art.
She paused and went to the mic and continued playing.
(A/N: THE SONG IS IN SPANISH SO I'M GOING TO TRANSLATE IT BUT IT'S BEAUTIFUL I COULDN'T HELP IT)
Turn down your phones, fasten your belts
And put your sit in vertical
And so the largest of the lessons
Of a Juliet imprisoned in an artificial life
When crossing the clouds in the seek the sun
She dream that a wing lose its rotor
And the planen heads to some mountains made of fiction
at first she would call the family
Then shen would say goodbye to each friend
Until arriving to her trashy Romeo
The one that from being just friends never stepped next stage
When crossing the clouds in the seek the sun
She dream that a wing lose its rotor
And the planen heads to some mountains made of fiction

I can't believe Natalia is so good at singing. I knew a little Spanish from school so I could understand some of what she was singing. She slowed down the strums to sing the chorus with more emotion.

"My friend and nothing else, what would you say if I tell you the truth?
Is it that you don't see me, memorizing your pores from your hair to your feet
You tend to reappear in each palm of my bed before the dawn
Then I woke, make up my mind, and I curse not having the courage
I felt pressure on my chest, I feel the meaning of this song. It's how she feels with Alba, and how I thought about Kate. I curse not having the guts to talk to her. I want to grow a pair and look for her... But she won't listen.
Natalia started with the quicker beat before retuning to the song.

We're going to land, fasten your belts
The forecast are several days of sun
And when we take land you can turn your phones on
And Juliet got a voice message
And all her body gets so tense
When seeing his Romeo used the voicemail
To say to her, sincerely, with all his bread, this statement
Again she started the chorus and I started crying. Why is love so hard on us? What would I do if I were Nat? Why are we such cowards!? I want Kate. I want her to remember me.
"My friend and nothing else, what do you say if I tell you the truth
Did you not see me, memorizing your pores from your hair to your feet
She ended the chorus and started another section. I could see that in her eyes tears were starting to show. She also feels this song.

poor Julieta, you dream in pairs, and one dream that doesn't have  flavor
applaud at Julieta, she waits to die because when she is whole doesn't have the courage
She repeated the idea three times before singing the chorus again.
I curse not having the courage.
She ended the song and let out a gasp, I couldn't cut the recording by then but I managed to stop the machine and got to her.
She hugged me with all her strength as she cried her eyes out.
My heart hurt just by seeing her like this, am I the same? God no. I started caressing her back and hugged her back. We were both a living mess at that moment, but it won't mind.
After all, no one was watching us.
"Dear Alba: I may not know you but please take care of this girl who loves you." I thought in that time.

"Did you like it?" Asked Nat after we were both calm.
"Of course I did. It was magical. Just like everything you do." I smiled and hugged her.
I likes this spanish girl. And I am hoping we can make nice songs at Madrid.
Two days later I was crossing the Atlantic for the first time, and I held Natalia's hand all the way. I was scared of planes! Don't blame me.
And when the plane landed I remembered that I forgot to buy my roaming package. I guess I won't be able to contact my Juliet for a while...
But of course, that's not like if she would call me.

A/N: FIRST OF ALL LEMME TELL YOU THAT UNIVERSITY HAS GOTTEN ME WITH THE BIGGEST HYPE!!
Now, the song.... It's great and reminds me of happy times.
So yeah...
Love ya:3