Voices in my head

Chapter 7

After weeks, I was finally able to sleep peacefully. My mind was at peace. I was able to kick all those voice that haunted me in my sleep, out of my head. I felt brave. And with that thought in my mind, I dozed off.

The next morning I woke up feeling unusually happy. Today was the day; I was finally going to talk to my grandparents about it. My grandpa was the chairman of my previous school so I knew it was going to be difficult to convince him. I headed straight to the washroom and got dressed. After preparing myself for all the questions that I'd thought my grandpa would ask me, I skipped happily in my parent's room.

My dad smiled at me as I entered the room and said, "Don't worry sweetie, I've got it all covered. Just let me do the talking and we will be fine." I nodded happily at my dad, my smile never leaving my face.

My grandpa was the head of our family and we respected him enough to not to take any big decisions before asking him hence the talk with my grandpa was a big deal.

My dad motioned me to follow him as we headed to my grandpa's music room. He was sitting there playing his harmonium so we sat in front of him and patiently waited for him to finish. After a while, he stopped and looked at my dad silently asking him what's the matter.

I gulped and looked at my mom. She squeezed my hand and whispered in my ear, "Don't worry. We've got you baby."

My dad cleared his throat and started, "Dad, Vrunda is a little lost right now and have made certain wrong decisions which have affected her badly. She wants to move on from her mistakes and wants a fresh start."

My dad took a pause and looked at his dad before going further. He just sat there waiting for him to continue. After a short pause, my dad continued, "We think it's best for her if she goes to a different school."

That's it. That was what my father told him. Not a single word or an explanation after that. He did not complain about how bad of a daughter I was or how he had no other choice than to change my school because I was too much of a coward to face my problems. Not a single negative statement about me. I felt myself tearing up again because of that. But I knew now was not the time. So I chewed my inner cheeks to prevent myself from crying and stared at my grandpa's face, waiting for him to reply.

7 minutes. (Yes I timed it because I was nervous.) No one said anything. We sat there quietly. We just stared at each other's face for 7 stupid minutes. My mind went in all the wrong places as I waited for him to answer. I was sure he was going to say a straight 'NO' because;

Reason no. 1- He was the chairman of my school, why would he let me go to a different school?

Reason no. 2- What would the people say if the eldest daughter of the chairman's family quits the school in the middle of a semester?

Reason no. 3- What would he answer to all the people questioning him about this decision?

With these three questions in my mind I'd given up the hope of things going in my favor. My mother noticed the dull look on my face and smiled at me. She patted my hand twice as if asking me not to worry.

And then my grandpa looked at me and asked, "Dear do you have a school in your mind you want to transfer to?"

I stared at him with wide eyes, words unable to leave my mouth. I then turned to my dad to see if I had heard him correctly. He shook his head at me and asked me to answer him. Still in shock, I let him know the name of the school I wanted to go ever since I was in second grade.

My grandpa chuckled at my response and said, "Okay. Give me a day and I will see what I can do to get you in."

I stared at him blankly and asked him without thinking, "Grandpa are.... aren't you going to a... ask what have I done wrong? Why do I suddenly want to change my school?  Why aren't you mad at me?" I stuttered

To this he smiled at me sweetly and said, "Sweetie, everyone makes mistake and you realizing them and asking for a second chance makes me happy. In fact I'm very proud of you that you've come up with a brave decision like this. Do not worry about anything else right now. Go upstairs while I talk to your mom and dad and enjoy your few days off from school because you know you will have to work harder when you get to the new school."

I thanked him and happily skipped my way to my room. As soon as I reached my room, I did a little happy dance on my bed and turned on my computer. I logged into my facebook account and started scrolling down. After a few minutes a message from Harry's sister popped up. I was a little surprised because after that scandal everyone related to Darwin or him had stopped all source of communication with me so getting a text from Darwin's best friend's sister surprised me.

Rhea (Harry's sister): What's up? Why are you and Harry not talking anymore? Everything cool?

I took my time thinking of a way to reply to that message.  A part of me wanted to rant and tell her how much of an asshole her brother was for leaving my side when I needed him the most while the other part of me argued saying she just wants gossip and she doesn't care.

Rhea: ?? You there?

And that is when I lost it. I decided to screw being logical and ended up texting her;

Me: You want to know what is wrong? Why don't you go and ask your brother or his asshole best friend? I am sure they will let you know all about what is wrong with me since they are the reason I am changing my fucking school. Well I hope this answers your question enough.

And with that I clicked on her profile and unfriended her without waiting for a reply. I went to the list of my friends on facebook and removed all the low life, jobless assholes from my facebook and turned off my computer and went for a nap.

The next two days were pretty much boring as my parents went to my previous school to take my leaving certificate and all that important documents that were needed. I did not want to step a foot in that school so I lazily locked myself in my room. I did not want to say a goodbye to anyone because I knew they did not care.

When my parents came home after collecting my L.C. my mom came to my room and said she needed to have a word with me. I just sighed waiting for another drama to happen and sat on my chair asking my mom what it was.

"All your teachers were asking me about you. Apparently they want to meet you before you go. From what I gathered you are one of their favorite student and they want to bid you a proper goodbye and luck for your future. You should go and meet them once and take their blessings." She said sounding proud and happy.

For the first time in months, I saw my mother smiling proudly because of me. I sighed and thought at least I have some good memories to take with me and with that I promised my mom to visit my teachers tomorrow and headed back to sleep.

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Well this is it for this week's chapter. The next few chapters are going to be about my new school and all the sweet people I meet there. So wait for it...

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Love,

Vrundaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa