Voices in my head

Chapter 9

It was a new day and the time to start a new chapter of my life. Today was the day; my grandpa was going to talk to the principal of my dream school. I woke up grinning like an idiot. I could not help but smile. I felt like a ball of sunshine and i knew nothing could ruin it. I don't know what was going to happen but I was happy. Happy thoughts filled my mind and I started my day with loads of positivity. After going through my normal morning routine, I skipped my way to my parent's room only to find it empty. I made my way downstairs to look out for my parents and saw them talking to my grandpa.

With a silly smile still plastered on my face, I made my way towards them. As soon as my grandpa saw me walking towards them, he gave me a small smile and made his way to his room, leaving the conversation with my parents-incomplete.

Raising a brow to my mom I asked, "What's the matter?"

She took my hand in hers and asked me to sit down. I immediately sensed something wrong.

"Sweetie, I am afraid I have some very bad news for you." She said.

My mind started coming up with all the things that could have possibly gone wrong. I could not help but wonder what if they had backed away from the plan of letting me change my school. No!!! I could not let that happen. I had already bid my farewell to everyone at the old school and I already had my LEAVING CERTIFICATE. i was not going to let them do this to me. I had made up my mind. I was going to put up a fight with parents till the very end. They knew I could not go back to that hellhole. Nope. Nada. Not going to happen brother.

I calmed my thoughts and requested my mother to let me know whatever that was happening. With my mouth dry, I pleaded, "Mother, please tell me you are not backing away from your decision. Please do not throw me back to that place again. You cannot do this to me. You promised me. You cannot back out now. I am not going back to that school again and that is it!"

After the end of my mini rant I was panting and shaking uncontrollably with rage/fear. Without waiting for her reply, I stormed my way to my room and started throwing my stuff around. I pulled my hair in frustration and screamed at the top of my lungs. A tear rolled down my cheek. I could not believe this was happening to me again. So much for having a good day, eh? I could not believe they were not going to keep their end of the deal.I could not believe they were going to send me back to those people again.

With one swift motion of my hand I swept away the books from my table to the ground. Another tear rolled down my cheek as I began thinking how unfair my life was to me. I locked my door and did the only thing that seemed right at that moment. I took my pencil box out of my bag and unscrewed the blade from my sharpener. I drew multiple cuts on my hand with the blade and smiled in satisfaction as I saw blood oozing out from the cuts. I could hear my mom banging the door but I did not care. All that mattered at that time was my pain and my anger.

"I will break that door down if you do not open it right now Vrunda," yelled my father from outside.

I knew him better than to think otherwise. I yelled at the door and asked them to give me a minute to clean up. I quickly made my way to my washroom after that and brought my bleeding wrist to the running water under the sink. As the water touched my fresh wounds, my skin burnt. I harshly wiped off all the excess blood from my cuts and pulled my sleeves down. After washing my face and checking my sleeve for any blood, I made my way out.

I saw my parents sitting outside my room with a very worried expression covering their face. As soon as my mother heard me open my door she jumped onto me and pulled me into a hug. I stood there awkwardly, not knowing what to do.

My dad cleared his throat to get my mother's attention and she let go off me and said, "You had us worried sick when you ran upstairs like that. For a while, I thought we were going to lose you again. Thank god you're okay. I cannot believe you'd run away like that without letting me finish." She managed to say it all in one breath and shook her head in disappointment.

I stared at her dumb-founded, not knowing how to react. After a while I whispered, "What do you mean?"

She shook her head and asked me to calm down. She then motioned my dad to continue. I glanced at him hopefully and waited for an explanation.

"We have not changed our decision honey. We are not going to send you back to that school where you cannot find happiness and peace. You do not need to worry about that. Your mental health and happiness is more important to us than any of the stupid school. As your parents, we would never do something to hurt you. We have already lost you once and we cannot lose you again by sending you there. I think we have made that clear by now. I do not know why you always have to assume the worst of any situation and trouble yourself. Listen, think, wait and then react." He scolded me.

Nodding my head guilty I urged, "I get it. Now can you please me what is actually happening?"

"I am sorry honey, but The Prestige High School's principal has rejected your admission. As it is in the middle of a school year, they say they cannot accept you. It is strictly against their school's policy. Your grandpa tried his best. The school's principal asks for a donation of 5 lac and they want you to repeat a year. The principal wants you to start again from grade 7th and that too after taking this year off i.e. the next year. You know this is unacceptable sweetheart. Your grandpa is ready to pay double the amount they are asking for but you cannot waste a whole year of your life. You get it right?" My dad explained.

It took my brain some time to register the words that had just left his mouth. I could not believe my dream school would do that. When I had made my decision to change the school, I did not think about the problems I would face. The shit going on right now was too much for me to handle but one thing I knew for sure was; I could not waste a whole year of my life for some stupid school.

"That's sad, dad. I did not think we would have such problems. I thought the most difficult part was getting out of the old school. But I guess I was wrong. Here comes the real challenge. What are we going to do now? Will any of the school accept me? What if no one accepts me? What if I will be forced to waste a year of my life? I do not want this to happen. You can put me back in my old school. I will study there without creating any more nuisance. I will stay away from Darwin and everyone related to him. Please do not make me waste a year." I all but begged my parents as tears streamed down my cheeks for the second time today.

"Of course we will not let that happen to you honey. Your grandpa is already talking to the principal of Cambridge High School and I am pretty sure you'll be going there for an interview tomorrow. So stop over thinking and go prepare yourself for an interview." My mother said, consoling me.

I let go off my breath I did not I was holding and sighed happily. I mentally thanked God for helping me through this and went to my room and dialed Nitya's number. After filling her in of whatever that has happened in the past days and hearing her cry about how much she was going to miss me, I hung up.

What an eventful day. Sigh. i was exhausted from the roller coaster ride my emotions went through today and with a hope of tomorrow being filled with good news and no tears, I dozed off.

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I know I have been super inactive lately but I have my exams in less than a month and I have been busy studying. I finally felt like taking a break to update a chapter and hence here i am!!

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Vrundaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa