craving // bellamy blake

{ ten }

After Kady read Clarke's paper, she kept looking at it for a while, wondering what she could do about it. "Kady, it's Clarke. Bellamy is losing himself again. He misses you a lot and the fact that you're trying to stay away to protect him is killing him. Please show up even if it's for 10 minutes."

Kady watched Lincoln get closer to the exit of Polis and she decided to grab a horse and meet him.

"Hod op!" She screamed at Lincoln, meaning for him to wait.

"Improving the language, I see." He smiled gently and she nodded, riding side by side with him. "The letter Clarke sent you was important?"

"No one is hurt. At least not physically." She looked at him. 

"Wells?"

"Bellamy." Kady said, looking around. "He's sleeping around again and Clarke is getting worried."

"Wait. Aren't you two together?"

"No. What gave you that idea?" She laughed softly but when she looked at Lincoln she understood. "Oh."

"You clearly care a lot about each other."  

"Can I ask you for advice?" She asked after a while.

"I thought we passed that when you left your clan to join mine." He chuckled but then nodded.

"Do you think he cares or that he thinks he cares because he got me arrested in the first place?"

"I can see why you're doubting your relationship with Bellamy... but from what I've seen and from what Octavia tells me... He really cares."

"When we first landed here..." She said, remembering that day. "He flirted with me and I told him I wasn't one of his girls because he had just had sex with Bree."

"And you don't want to become one of his girls." Lincoln concluded which made Kady nod. 

"I don't want him to marry me but... I'd probably kill to have someone to like me as much as you like Octavia or Octavia likes you." Kady said smiling as they approached Lincoln and Octavia's spot.

"Maybe that someone is Bellamy." Lincoln smiled, popping out of his horse.

"Hey!" Octavia waved happily to Kady who smiled largely.

"Hey. I'm taking a little trip to our camp." Kady bounced her head.

"Have fun." Octavia smiled a little and Kady winked at her.

"You too."

"See you tomorrow?" Lincoln asked Kady who bounced her head.

"I'll probably ride back at Polis during the night." She said and he nodded.

When Kady reached the delinquents camp she could hear screams because no one was able to identify her since she was on a horse and her looks were totally different.

"Who are you?" Miller pointed a gun at her in the dark but Kady chuckled.

She jumped off the horse, locking him safely and then she started to walk to the light where they could see her.

"Jesus Miller, put that thing down." She grumbled and he smiled, seeing her.

"It's Kady!" Miller cheered up and gave her a quick hug. Wells ran right at her and spun her around.

"Hey!" She laughed softly, watching her best friend and then the whole camp. 

Most of the people waved at her, smiling but not Bellamy. He hadn't shown up yet. He hadn't heard Miller and the cheering since he was too busy, but when he left his tent, followed by Bree and his eyes met Kady's... He knew he had fucked up.

Kady was trying to ignore the little tears that were on her eyes and to do that, she focused on hearing Wells say all the news.

"You're back." Bellamy interrupted them but even though she felt his eyes on her, she didn't look at him.

"Just came to pay a visit." She said low and for the first time, she looked at him.

"Why today?

"Clarke send a letter through Lincoln. She asked me to come." She admitted and Wells kissed her forehead, leaving the two of them alone. 

"Because of Wells?"

"Because of you." She said more brutal than she wanted. "But clearly you're good." She said hurt.

"I missed you."

"And you think sleeping around is going to make it better, Bellamy? Clarke told me you were like this but I could just ignore and be here tonight with you but I arrive and what do I see?" She said hurt. "You don't think I miss you too?"

"I never said that."

"And by the way, what do you exactly miss? As far as I'm concerned, you're only trying to make up for the mistake you did on the Ark. Nothing else." She said, looking away.

"You think it's that?" Bellamy asked surprised. "You don't think I care for you?"

"Right now, I don't know what to believe."

"You were the one who walked away, Kady."

"To protect you. Not to protect me but to protect everyone but especially Wells and you." She looked at him as the tears fell from her eyes. She had never cried in front of him and it wouldn't be now.

"I didn't want you to protect me!" Bellamy looked at her.

"Kady." Jaha called, approaching them.

"Hey." She smiled a little and hugged him.

"I've kept my promise." He nodded in direct of Bellamy. "Where's your part?"

"What part?" Bellamy asked confused.

"Here." She took a notebook from her bag and she handed it to Jaha. "A deal is a deal."

"Indeed." Jaha nodded. "I'm glad you made it, Kady."

"You too, Jaha." She nodded, watching him leave.

"What promise and what deal?" Bellamy looked at Kady who took a deep breath.

"Remember when I said Jaha wouldn't kill you?"

"Yes."

"He wanted information on the ground as an exchange for your freedom. Everything is there. Well, not everything but most likely."

"What if he uses to manipulate and attack other clans?" Bellamy looked at her eyes.

"It was worth the price to me." She looked at his eyes.

"You didn't care about starting a war."

"If you're alive then no, I don't care if I started a war. As long as you survive it, I'm good."

"I—" Bellamy started.

"I should go now. I still need to train." She said and Bellamy nodded softly. "Just do me a favor."

"Anything."

"Don't sleep around. I rather come in a horse from Polis to here than you sleeping with other girls." She admitted, low.

"I thought you didn't want anything to deal with me anymore. That's why..." Bellamy sighed but grabbed her face slowly. "You risked everything to save me."

"I did." She smiled a little.

"Would you do it again?"

"Of course."