Let me get my way | Pesy

My true feelings

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Jesy's POV
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Weeks have passed since the stupid party and nothing happened between me and Perrie. I feel like she really doesn't want me the way I want her. She doen't even like me. And I fucking love her. I woke up and got ready for class. I went to the kitchen to eat something and Gigi was there.

"Hey, Jesy." She said, still sleepy. I rolled my eyes at her. "Why do you hate me?" She then asked.

"Because you're a bitch. You had sex with Alex. While Perrie was still with him. And bot only that, but you treat us like shit. And you think I wouldn't hate you?" I confessed, angrily. She rolled her eyes.

"Well, I tried to be friends with you, but apparently I can't have that." She said and I raised my eyebrow.

"A fake snake like you will never have friends. I fucking hate you over everything in this world. Why don't you go to Alex now, huh? Was it only a one time thing? 'Cause one snake figured the other one out?" I teased, getting angrier. Then she started crying.

"Why the fuck do you hate me?" She asked, and before I could answer she stormed into her room. I just quickly ate something and went to my classes.

After the boring classes I got back to my dorm and Perrie was sitting on the couch, watching tv and everything around her was full of snacks and empty wrapers.

"Pez. What happened here?" I asked and she shrugged.

"I've decided I wanna get fat." She then said and I shook my head, walked to her and took everything away from her. I carried the stuff into the kitchen and when I was done I sat down on the couch next to her.

"Don't do that to yourself. You're a beautiful girl and you shouldn't destroy your body." I said, cleared my throat and strated singing my song 'If I get my way'. She smiled at me.

"Jes. Is that for me?" She asked when I finished singing. I shrugged.

"Maybe." I simply answered.

"Do you have another one?" She asked and I nodded. I sang 'I love you'.

"Do you really feel like that about me?" She then asked. I nodded lightly. "Jes, I would've never guessed." She said, smiled and hugged me. "For how long now?" She asked.

"Since freshman year. I've told Jade and Leigh. We tried many different ways to show you how I feel, but you pushed away. Every time." I said and she frowned.

"I'm sorry, Jes. I didn't realize what you were trying to do." She said and hugged me again.

"And the truth is, I love you, Perrie Edwards. So fucking much. And I was so sad you were with Alex. But now you're finally free of that asshole." I said and she nodded.

"Jesy, I have to be honest. I-I don't love you. I like you a lot. But I swear to you that I will not ignore you. And I want to say I love you, Jes. But it might take time." She said and frowned at me. "I'm sorry." She then added.

"It's okay, Pez. I was stupid thinking anyone could love me. I am just fat and ugly. What is there to like?" I said. I felt tears building up, so I stormed off into my room, locked the door and cried into my pillow. I heard Perrie knocking and slamming on my door, but I ignored everything and just cried. I cried until I was so tired I just fell asleep.