RETURN MY LOVE PLEASE

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(Killua's POV)

Being apart from the one you love is like making yourself laugh at a sad movie. Its doesn't make sense.

Everything doesn't make sense.

You wake up think of him and then you stare out of nowhere and think of him again. Fucking heart I didn't know you're this powerful. You can make a horror movie a sad one. No thrills! even the creepy things doesn't affect you because nothing can scare you most than him leaving you.

Ugh. I don't make sense. I mean why am I here? In this Seville town that Gon doesn't even know? What am I thinking!?

I'm here hiding pathetically. I'm here hiding hoping he would find me but half of me wish that he wouldn't.

I want to think that he's running everywhere finding me. I want to think that he miss me. I want to think that he badly needs me. I want to but I don't want him to feel like he had been left again like his father did. I love Gon above all.

I love Gon more than myself. 

I despise myself! Promising Gon that I won't leave him but here I am hiding from him. I left him alone in that god forsaken place we chose because we wanted to live in a place that is just us. I really thought that day that Gon loves me like in a romantic way because he's the one who thought about living in a place where there is not so much people.

Its just almost 3 weeks but I feel like its almost 3 years.

I should stop my nonsense.  Gon maybe hates me. I should stop.

I should start to atleast try to enjoy myself so that I could maybe forget about all of this for a while.

I pulled myself up in a sitting position on my bed and started to grab my red hoodie on my side table.

I stand up and wore my shoes. 

I think I'll have my breakfast at Kings Cafe first. Maybe the chocolate milkshake can help me acting normal again.

I grabbed my keys and my wallet and got out. 

"When we meet again later door you will see a smile on me."

And that's it door is my friend that witnessed all of my cries I'm sure its tired of it.  Might as well give him a pure smile later once I get my head back into pieces again.

(Retz's POV)

Gon and I were just walking into a park and looks at random people.  I think his friend is not here though, this island is too far from every towns. But I don't want to make Gon feel hopeless so I'll just might as well continue this.

"Gon let's sit here for a second." Gon nodded and followed me. 

"This sure is pretty tiring huh?" I said.
" *glances at me* If you're tired you can go home Retz.  I can manage by myself." Gon said while resting his elbows on his knees and his chin resting on both of his palms.

"No.  Gon I'm not leaving you here."

"Hmm." Gon didn't say anything instead of that slight hum.  What could he be thinking.

"Uhmm.  Can I ask you a question? "

I waited for him to reply but he just looked at me just moving his eyeballs. 
Fuck.  My heart!

"*clears throat* Uhmm so,  I guess I can.  You see Gon a description of your friend could help.  Tell me whats the color of his eyes, his hair, everything that could help." I said and he glanced at me again with his sexy tired eyes. 

He's too hot to be true!

Gon sit up straight as I struggled to not let myself tremble from his hotness. 

Gon didn't say anything. I looked at him amd I saw him removing his shirt revealing his belly button.

"ugh"

oh no!  Did I say that outloud?! Or its just inside my head. 

Oh me!  This is so not lady like!

I've got to get away.  I can't let him see me like this!  I swear I'm as red as a tomato right now.

"Ohh.  Uhh.  Can I get a drink Gon?  You wait here okay? "  I stand up fast and ran. 

Oh god I can't feel like this.  I can't. I just can't or I'll be hurt in the end.

I placed a coin inside the machine and get an orange and apple juice.

I then walked back slowly.

I saw Gon wearing a new cloth but its not a t-shirt anymore its a black sando now. 

I felt my heart beat fast again. I love this feeling.  It makes me feel the unexplainable happiness. It's so good.  Seeing him makes me the happiest girl in the world. 

I think I have lost my mind but I don't care. I love it.

"Retz? Are you okay? Why are you staring at me like that?"