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Nightmare

"Hyungs?.....namjoon......Jimin.....Jungkook..........Tae.....No."

There all gone.. because of me. 

They did everything for me but I couldn't even save them.....

Look at me!  I look in a mirror and i'm covered in blood and bruises, My clothing torn. 

I'm a mess....no..why do I even care?  My friends are gone.......and .........jiwoo......

I clench my heart. 

THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP

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"looking for someone?" A guy walks up holding my sister.

"LET HER GO NOW!" I scream , trying to keep from crying.

"or what? you scrub boy, your worthless , you have never been anything to anyone, nothing but a burden and a problem! you can't  even protect yourself what made you think you could protect Her?!!!" 

I watched in horror as the man slowly morphed into a darker, paler version of myself. 

"you couldn't protect mom! you let her die right in front of you and let them get away with it! she was innocent! it was dad who would hit you, and hit her, it was him who tried to sell you! BUT YOU STILL LET HER DIE! YOU HAD TO RAISE JIWOO YOURSELF AND STILL GO THROUGH SCHOOL AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT, do you ever wonder how she feels? how much she might hate you if she found out you let mom die? " No .....no stop

 he grabs jiwoo tighter , her wincing in pain. tears flowing from her eyes like rivers of complete suffering. 

"STOP" I yell a tear escaping my eye.

"Do you even remember how people reacted when they found out you were an orphan?! they outcasted you. and you know it. you were lucky to even have the 6 of them. They surly pitied you. why else would they help out the poor little orphan boy with seizures? Your a overflowing cup and no one wants to help collect the water! You don't deserve it! and you don't deserve her either! Every day at school she has to deal with people making fun of her for having "a loner loser brother" and she's been outcasted now too,  she only has a few people who trust her. but now, she won't need them , cause you failed her, you could never be what she needed and you know that SHE NEEDED HER MOM BUT YOU TOOK THAT AWAY " 

               I try to hit him but he disappeared and reappeared behind me and kicked me down.  I wince in pain and fall to my knees.

im useless.

im worthless. 

im sorry jiwoo

"giving up so easy huh?" he kicks me in the stomach.

"just what I expected" he grabs a knife from his pocket.

"Say goodbye to the girl Hoseok" I cry

" NO STOP PLEASE.......TAKE ME TAKE MY LIFE I DON'T CARE JUST PLEASE DON'T HURT HER!" I cry and scream.

Then as if he didn't even hear me, he stabs her in the back. 

He drops her to the floor, she cries and the light in her eyes slowly fade to greyness. The blood flows down to my feet  and becomes water that suddenly surrounds me.

I being to lose my breath as I drown in the water

Things flash before me, all my mistakes and failures. 

I watch them like a movie as the pass by. 

I want to wake up.

"Hoseok...."

I want to wake up

"hey, hyung"

Please just wake me up

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"HYUNG" I hear Namjoon scream in my ear. I open my eye and i'm back in yoongi's house. I must've dozed off. I feel a tear on my face. 

"are you crying?" Jin asks me. I shake my head no.

"no i'm just really tired " Yoongi nods

"so am I , let's head to bed alright, Jin hyung , namjoon, there's a guest room upstairs to the left , hoseok you'll be with me in my room so I can keep an eye on you, you seem off right now." Namjoon and Jin nod heading upstairs.

I swear yoongi knows everything. You'd think mr.48 IQ would but nope he's surprisingly not good with emotions.

I just hope I never have another nightmare like that.

That was worse than any i've had before.