We stay at the pool for a while. When it's starts getting colder we started a fire. We all huddle together In blankets around the fire.we laugh and joke but everyone could tell there was tension. I lean my head on yoongi's thigh as Jin starts playing his guitar. This is Nice. Jungkook sings along to the music wit his amazing voice. We told him to be an idol, but he said he didn't want to lose his laundry detergent. I still don't get it. They finish and we clap.
"It's the 'Get real time' now isn't it huh?" Namjoon says and we laugh. We always end up talking about how we feel at one point.
"Well uh. I got fired...." Namjoon says and we laugh.
"I feel like someones watching me, but nothings there" tae says
"HA boy sees ghost now too? Rest in pieces" yoongi says
"I want to say something, but I don't know how you'll take it" Jimin says, we nod.
"Go ahead Jimin, no one's gonna judge you" Jin assures him.
"The night before the funeral........ When I heard what happened I.............I went to the bridge again" I look down and yoongi looks away.
Jimin hadn't known the others back then, he only knew me and Yoongi.
"I was really thinking of trying again if i'm being honest here.......I know You two don't want to remember that day but it was all that was playing in my head." the others look confused when he looks towards us but they don't question, they got the point.
"I decide I wanted to do one thing to try to help myself..... So I called Hoseok Hyung...and because he answered and was right there for me......I'm still here today" They all look at me and I look up in tears.
His life has been hard. He had Jumped off that bridge before but. I saved him this time.
I
STOP
Saved
STOP
Him.....
Just stop hoseok... look at you. Your crying. What kind of wannabe hero cries? Just move on.
I wipe the tears away.
"Hoseok really knows how to help others" Jungkook says. Everyone looks at him.
"I feel like I never really appreciated you enough for it either..." He continues , I shake my head.
"Like....My Adoptive mother told me that some guys told her ' Your son is a fuck up, we'll kill you and him if you don't get rid of him' Then they asked be what I did....said I must've killed someone... I felt broken, angry, upset...but above all , I felt useless but hyung....the way you made it seem like I was important , thank you"
They all look at me, but i'm shocked.
"I don't understand....." I say finally.
"I liked it better when you all didn't thank me...I know you are grateful, but it's just my job. No need to thank me" I say and the roll their eyes. Yoongi looks at me.
"But we shouldn't just expect you to deal with our problems, here how about we handle one of yours in return" they nod. I just freeze.
NO
But they offered
Why would you burden them? Can't you see the are going through enough?
Aren't we supposed to share? So we don't explode?
That's fucking 5th grade mindfulness bullshit.
Well we gotta say SOMETHING they are staring
NO NO NO NO NO
"I cant!" I yell and they flinch. I cover my mouth as if I had cursed.
".......fine......." Yoongi says and walks off , I go to go after him but namjoon stops me.
"Just cool down first" he says. I lay on the ground and Jin plays his guitar. I fall asleep.
Yoongi POV
I walk off. It's so frustrating that he won't tell me anything. Can he see how much I care about him? I hate to see him in pain but he just won't budge. Maybe if I told him how I felt , he'd understand but...ugh... We used to be so close Hoseok.....What happened? It's like my world is crashing and so is his, but mines just more visible. I love him........but I don't know if he knows what love is.....
I hear a noise.I also smell strong liquor. I turn around.
"Go on and come out, your not very good at this" I say expecting to see a stranger pop out.
But it's not just a stranger.
"Back again?" I say rolling my eyes.
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"Just wanted to make sure your okay" It was namjoon.
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