Beautifully Broken ~Jacob Black Love Story~

Chapter 14 - Bonfire

Emilys POV

I woke up in Jacobs arms. I smiled. I wish he wouldn't have imprinted. I need him. He makes me feel good. I got up and went to take a shower. I cleaned my wrist, I rebanaged it and started doing my make up. I curled my hair and walked downstairs.

" Hey Emily, would you like to come to our bonfire tonight? Sue asked.

" are you sure they want me there, I'm kinda ' with the other pack' if you know what I mean?" I asked. Little did she know, I was in the pack.

" Sam asked if you wanted to come" Sue said. I nodded. " Where is everyone?" I asked. 

"They are eating breakfast at Emily's" She smiled.

" Will you wake up Seth and Jacob for me. Billy is going to be over soon." She smiled. I nodded.

I walked up to Seth's door and opened it slowly. Making sure he was decent, he was infact sleeping.

" Seth" I whispered running my fingers through his hair.

" Hmadgnoishga" he mumbled.

" Your mom said to wake you up" I laughed. He pulled me over to him and I pulled the covers over me.

" I miss you" I whispered. " I know, I'm sorry I haven't really been around." he said with his eyes still closed.

" It's ok. But you really do have to get up" I said placing a kiss on his forehead.--

" Jacob, you need to wake up" I said poking his cheek.

" Emily, it's saterday" he groaned. " Ok, one.Sue made me, and two. Your in my bed." I said in a matter of fact tone. He laughed and pulled me into bed with him. I couldn't help but think about Ren. He would be so mad if he saw me. But it's not like I'm doing anything. Jake has already imprinted.

" Thank you Jake" I said with a sigh. I watched as his eyes finally opened.

" For what exactly?" he smiled.

" You saved my life Jake. Yeah, I would have been fine. Ren would have taken care of me, but you made me feel better. I don't feel dark anymore." I said telling the truth.

" What do you mean dark?" he asked. He sat up and yawned.

" I felt like, I was drowning in everything. I kept swimming and fighting but it kept pulling me under no matter how hard I tried. I was just waiting for me to give up." I sighed. He placed his thumb under my eye to stop the single tear that rolled down my face.--

I smiled walking down the beach with Jake. I kept remebering Billy's eyes, dancing with the flames. He was very good at telling stories. Well, history. It was nice to hear about Jake's history. It was so different from the way Ren's pack works. I felt Jakes hand wrap around mine and I stoped in the middle of my sentence.

 " What. I can't hold your hand?" he asked pain written all over his face. I mentally slapped myself. I'd been leading him on this whole time and I didn't even realize it.

" No, of course you can. I just don't want it to mean something different to you" I stated.

" what do you mean? This doesn't mean anything to you?" he hissed grabbing my forearm.

" Jake, stop your hurting me" I hissed. Hurt flashed in his eyes, he looked down at my arm.

" Fuck. I'm so sorry Emily. I- I didn't mean to hurt you. I wasn't thinking" he said tears briming in his eyes.

' Jake, it's fine. You were just angry." I said holding his hand.

"I just wish you understood" he sighed.

" Understood what? I'm sorry, I didn't realize that I was leading you on, but I didn't think it mattered beause of your imprint. I mean, I know how you feel about her. So, I didn't think I was that important." I lied shifting the weight on my feet.

" Jake" I whispered. " I can't do this, I'm sorry"

" Do what? We aren't doing anything." he hissed.

" I'm not supposed to feel like this Jake. Don't you get it? Everytime I see you, my heart feel's like it's going to explode. When I look at you, your so sad. But when you look back at me, your whole mood changes, like your expecting something from em.I'm not going to let you in. I can't loose you too." I cried.

" Emily, your  my imprint" he said. A smile grew from my mouth.

" Emily your arms bleeding" he said. But I was still shocked. I ignored my arm.

" I made you bleed" he said walking closer to me.

" No Jake, it wasn't you." I said.

" did you get bitten?" he asked. I stayed silent. I know he wanted the truth, but I didn't want to give it to him.

" That fucking son of a bitch. He bite you. God, I wasn't there. Did it hurt?" he asked trying to wrap his head around it.

" No, I asked for it." I whispered.

" I should have been there." Jake said ingoring me and swearing at himself.

" Wait, what? You asked for this. Emily why the hell would you do that?" he asked. I looked down at my arm which was still bleeding.

" They are my family Jake, they are many of the few people I have left." I whispered.

" You have me." Jake said cupping my cheek. " You'll always have me too Jake, but one day. Your going to leave. " I cried.

" I'm sorry, I have to go" I whispered.

" I love you" Jake said. I stoped running, I didn't turn around. How could he do this to me? He know's what I'm going through.

 " I love you to Jake" I whispered. I wish he would have heard it.

But part of me wishes,I didn't hear it.