blind

i'm so sorry

***trigger warning***

Ethan, Ari and I go back to James' apartment in New York to get our things, as we're moving back in.

i come home.

i call his name.

and he's not here.

"Grayson,"

i walk into the bedroom.

on the night stand, i see a letter.

To the girl I love.

Billie, I hope you know how much I love you. Words can't describe how much I feel for you. I've never felt this much love for someone in my life.
             But, you deserve better. By the time you're reading this, I'll be dead or in hospital. I've decided to take this opportunity and end myself. Because you're too good for me and I've hurt you. You're all I've ever wanted, and all I'll ever want.
            Everytime that you're lonely, or sad, just know that I'll be here, watching over you, baby. You're safe with me. I know this is cliché, but you're the prettiest girl I've ever met. And you're so special. And I thought that one day we would get married and have kids, and die together. But we can't, because you're too good for me.

You're the girl I love,
Grayson x

i'm a little bit lost without you.