blind

begin again.

Grayson comes home today. We're all really excited, Ethan, Ariana and I are all so grateful that he's able to be home. But, he doesn't look it, himself. For example, when I tried to take his bags into the car, he got agitated really quickly.

"I can do it myself." he said, as he snatched the bag away from me.

So, I decide to vent to Ariana, as always.

"Ariana bananaaaaaaaaa. I need you!"
She comes over, and sits beside me on my bed.
"Grayson...he's been acting weird lately." I say.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, he keeps on spending loads of time by himself. He doesn't really want to talk to me, or anyone, at all. Like, this morning, I tried to take his bags into the trunk of the car, he snatched them away from me."
"I mean," she started. "You can't jump to conclusions. He did just come out of the hospital, you know. He just attempted suicide. You should take into consideration how he feels, y'know?"

She gave me a hug and left me sitting in the warehouse, alone.

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I walk into our bedroom and Grayson gets mad. "Billie, knock first." he says, shaking his head.
"It's my bedroom, too,"
Now's my chance to talk to him, I thought to myself.
"Grayson, honey," He looks up from his phone. "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine." he looks back at his phone.
"Grayson." I half-shout.
"What, Billie?"
"Why are you acting this way, what's gotten into you? You've been acting so pissed off lately. How can I help you?You know, I'm here for you if you need anything."
"You know what you could do to help me?" he says.
"What? I'll do anything."
"If you leave." I sat there, upset, confused, angry. There was nothing I could do to help him, and that made me sad.
"Leave me alone."

So I get up and leave. a/n: play song.

grayson's p.o.v

What the fuck has gotten into me? Billie's right. I'm throwing away everything I have in life, and I'm choosing to do it. If I'm not careful, I'm going to lose everyone. Billie, Ethan, Ariana - everyone. Honestly, I don't remember the last time I spoke to Ethan. But, my mind is everywhere. I keep losing track of thought and every now and then, I think about what would've happened if the doctors couldn't help me. It's like the beginning all over again. 

ethan's p.o.v

I head down to the mailbox to collect today's mail.
Bills. Bills. Manager. Bills.

To Ethan Grant Dolan, Grayson Bailey Dolan and Whomever else it may concern

Dear Ethan Grant and Grayson Bailey Dolan,

We are devastated to hear your father, Sean Dolan, has passed away, yesterday evening, during his long battle with Stage 4 Cancer. Please accept our sincere and heartfelt condolences at this most difficult of times and please pass these feelings onto your family.

With deepest sympathy,
Los Angeles, California Decease and Memorial Office

"Baby," Ariana calls. She walks over and takes the letter out of my hand.

my. whole. world. stops.