I grab Ethan's laptop from his room and walk into mine. I sit on our bed, and open it.
Ethan's MacBook enter password: purpleplushbeanbagchair
I click on the guest mode option and begin searching.
Google Search: how to deal with depression
Common ways people deal with depression: -keeping a diary/journal -self harm click to see more...
self harm. so, cutting?
I close Ethan's computer, place it back on his desk, and walk into Grayson and my (a/n: idk if that's the correct grammar. i'm normally good at grammar. ok, bye. - sarah x) bathroom. I shuffle through all the shelves and drawers until I find a razor. I really shouldn't be doing this, I tell myself. What will Grayson think of me if he finds out? He won't. I wash my hands and clean the blade. I dig the edge into my wrist and drag it down. It hurt, but it still felt good. I wipe the blood away with a wet cloth, clean the blade, and hide it in one of Grayson's shelves.
a/n: okay, so i've decided since this chapter was really short, i'm gonna put the next chapter in this part. ok, so jus pretend the title is really big lol - sarah x
emma chamberlain
james's p.o.v (a/n: hahahaha, u forgot about him, didn't u?)
beefydaddy#1 (a/n: ethan)
today, 09:08am
hey, kitty girl
James, don't call me that
whatever you say, daddy. can i come over today? i have someone i want you guys to meet. (a/n: let's pretend it's been a few weeks and there's a chapter where james is like: 'sPiLl' and everyone else is like: 'oKaY, sO bAsIcAlLy, BiLlIe hAd A MiSsCaRiAgE'. - sarah x)
Sure, what time?
11:30
Ok
11:30am
"Emma, it's going to be fine. I'm sure they'll love you" I tell her, giving her a reassuring hug. "Okay, whatever you say, sister." I grab her hand and pull her her along, then knock on the front door. Ariana answers. She's taller than I remembered, wait, never mind, she's wearing heels.
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(a/n: she has this hair and she's wearing this ^ without the puffer jacket tho, she's inside wtf, is she some kind of 'puffling' to you? lol sorry, went on a bit of a rant there - sarah x )
"Hey, sister!" I said, as she pulls me into a tight hug, then she steps back.
"Who's this?" she says, smiling. "This is a friend of mine that I'd love for you to meet; Ariana, this is Emma, Emma, this is Ari."
emma's p.o.v
I give her a quick smile. Don't want her to get the wrong idea.(a/n: she doesn't want ari to think they'll be best friends, not like that... - sarah x) "Well, come inside" she motions to us. I step inside and her house is h u g e. As soon as she shuts the front door, two hot guys walk down the stairs. They're both really tall, but one of them catches my eye. Then, he comes behind Ariana's waist and hugs her from behind. They're definitely dating. "Emma," James says. "This is Ethan and Grayson." They wave and I wave back. "Guys, where's Billie?" "She's upstairs. She'll be down in a sec." my-potential-boyfriend says. As soon as he finishes his sentence, a blonde girl, my height, walks down the stairs and holds Grayson's hand. "Hi," she says. "Hi." I say.
(filler chapter) 1st person p.o.v
A few weeks pass and Emma quickly fits in. The group start to make YouTube videos together, weekly and they gain a large following. However, Ariana and Billie are both having seperate problems with Emma that the rest of the group don't know about. Ariana's problem: Ariana has noticed that Emma is always trying to get closer to Ethan. For example:
Today, the group were filming a video. They were shopping for each other. "So," Ariana said. "Who's shopping for who?" "I'm shopping for Ethan!" Emma exclaimed. She pushed Ariana out of the way, making her trip, to sit next to Ethan. "Oh my gosh, Ariana, are you okay?" Billie, Grayson, Ethan and James all rush to help her. "Oops." Emma shrugs her shoulders. "No, I'm fine, thank you, though." she says.
Billie's problem: Billie's problem is a bit worse. She carries on cutting, and also, Emma keeps putting her down by making rude comments about her.
Tonight, Billie, Ariana and Emma were having a sleepover- a 'girl's night'. Since they were all girls, they were getting changed together, obviously. "Girls, I'm going to brush my teeth." She told them, since she had finished changing first. As Billie was taking off her shirt, Emma said: "Billie," "Yeah," she looked up. "Wouldn't you want to lose a bit of that weight?" "Huh?" "You know, for Grayson." Billie looked down. Oh, she thought to herself. I am gaining a bit of weight. A lot of weight. "I can help you with that." Emma said. "Go on,"
