10. missing a ghost
I won't kill myself over you
Not trip over my feet
Or cough up lovesick poetry
I wouldn't throw myself in front of a train
To guarantee your safety
Nor would I allow my veins
To leak with the scars I've long since ceased creating on my forearms
You will not drive me to complete insanity
You cannot quell the fire inside of me
And I wish my life was always this empowering
But for now I'll settle for this clear moments in my conscience
You are a ghost
I've never seen you in person
Only in pictures engrained on my phone screen
I've never heard your laugh
Unless it was a video in my twitter feed
And if you didn't even exist
I would be none the wiser
For I have never touched your face with my shaking hands
And I fear I never will
But fear, I can handle
Because I have feared my entire life
But what I cannot allow myself to do
Is spend my days in futile hope
Or groundbreaking grief
MISSING. A. GHOST
