~Here we go Again~ (Part One)

Savvies Chapter 20(Last Chapter): Mavis' POV

AN: Last chapter, hope you liked the beginning of Mavis' story, after all, this is only the beginning...
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My eyes opened to the pitch black room and me trembling and burning up under the covers. I sat up and threw the covers off me. I wanted to cry from the darkness of the room taunting me. I switched on the light.

The room was exactly how I left it yesterday morning. All I could hear was the...ticking of the clock, that was far too similar to the thudding in my dream. I used my savvy to crush the clock, it stopped ticking.

My eyes were wide and unfocused. I took a moment to compose myself before I got up taking a shower in silence and getting dressed.

On my way out the door, I looked behind me at the clock. Thudding from the dream resonated in my head. I shook it off and went upstairs.

It was cloudy today, only 6:47. My eyelids were heavy and my mind foggy. I felt like I was going to pass out, but every time I close my eyes I see that field again.

    I let my mind wander as I waited for others to get up, which will take a while.

    What happens now? Who am I really? What is my goal? Do I exist? I'm so lost I start wandering outside, trying to find myself. I walk through trees and over the creek. I look at the flowers popping up in random spots as the clouds get darker. The wind tinkles through windchimes and rustles tree leaves. It smells like rain. Why did I come to such a place? Why can't I remember? Because you're not supposed to. They don't know you.

    It starts to rain, small droplets land on my head and nose, arms and glasses. It patters on the roof of the house and bridge, it pinks on the glass bottles I practiced my savvy on. The rain soaks my shirt and hair. The air is cold against my skin but I don't seem to notice. What makes our powers real? How did I get them? I think you can call it fate. These people aren't your family.

    The air is grey and solemn. Cold and sad, a spark of warmth that is me as I walk through it. It's quiet almost, despite the constant wash of rain. Am I missing something? Always. They can't help you.

    "Mavis? What are you doing?" Gypsy asked running over with an umbrella in her pajamas and bare feet. "You'll get a cold, come back in," she says bringing the umbrella over both our heads. She starts walking back but I don't follow. "What's wrong?" She asked with worry in her eyes I wish was real. They don't care about you. Your nothing. Leave. Painful. It's painful now. In my head and chest and throat.

    "What am I doing here?" I choke out looking at her accusingly.

    "What do you mean?" She asked confused.

    "Why am I here?"

    "Mavis-" I cut her off with a hand.

    "I don't belong here," She seems shocked at this, and so do I. It sounds nothing like me. "Do I?"

    "I don't understand..." Her voice is shaking and scared. "Where is this coming from?" Tell her. About the dream. My head hurts...

    "The dream..?" I say to myself. My eyebrows draw together and I hold my head. Tell her what needs to happen! It feels like my head's gonna explode.

    "What dream? Mavis, you're scaring me..." she says nervously.

    "I have to- My time- Why?" I screw my eyes shut and hold my head, it hurts. I open my eyes and look up at her through my rain-splattered glasses.

    "Mavis, tell me what's wrong. What can I do?" She steps closer. Hand outstretched.

    "You can't do anything!" I yelled pushing my hands out at her. My savvy snaps, crushes and rips the umbrella to shreds as she drops it. I cover my mouth in shock and stare down at it horrified. That could have been Gypsy. You could have killed her.

    I run. Over the grass, over the bridge, to the trees. She's following. I run up the hill to the tree line. I get there and stop. Looking over my shoulder I see her running to me. I turn back and run. My blood is full of adrenaline and it makes my hands buzz. I glance quickly over my shoulder and don't see her. Where am I to go? Somewhere else...

    I turn back but instead of the trees and grassy ground, it's black.

    I yelp and stop. All around me is black, stretching on forever. There was thin mist and a glassy floor that I couldn't see my reflection in. I panted and turned in all directions. Nothing. That is until I saw a light.

    I walked towards it on shaking legs and saw it was a sleek silver laptop with a plain white screen and blinking black cursor. Above that was one sentence of text. It said:  Last Message...  To who? Why?

    Flashes of images of the farm and me and the Beaumont's flashed ahead of me in the open space. Us training, laughing and together. I cover my mouth as tears gathered in my eyes. A sob grew in my throat and I looked down at the blinking cursor...

    What would I say? Goodbye? Explain? Nothing? I feel like I should be more concerned about where I was but I could barely focus. I began to type.

'I know this is probably not what you expected, it's not for me either. I don't know what's happening, but I have to leave. I don't know if I'll see you again. Don't look for me, you won't have any luck... I wish I could explain. It's hard if you don't understand. When you miss me, just remember that when you had me I wasn't enough. Thank you, for everything...I'll be okay, promise.  ~Mavis'

I took my time, making sure I meant every word, making sure they didn't worry. I don't know if it will do the trick.

Looking up at the pictures still flashing, it stops. It shows Gypsy, wet from the rain get to the forest. She stops and looks around frantically. I clench my jaw and look down. This is so hard to watch. Seeing them lose me, just like that. I hit 'enter' on the laptop and the message disappears and a note appears in front of Gypsy.

She picks it up, reads it. Her sad scared face becomes dull and shocked. My heart breaks as she stands and crumples the paper up. Tears streak her face as she looks around again with a scowl.

"How am I going to explain this..." she hissed sourly and walks back out of the forest. Tears fall from my lashes and I'm trembling from holding myself back. I cover my mouth with my hand and pretend not to hear that song in my head again.

"I don't know." Everything goes numb there's nothing.

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