Abusive

Lunch

After my fourth period is time to go lunch, today is being not as terrible as I thought it would be, Finn is actually being such a sweetheart, I can tell that he really cares.

"Hey Rach, ready to go lunch? We, from glee club, decided to have lunch at courtyard, cause we imagine you would like fresh air." Finn said with a half smile and I smiled a little to him, that's all I can do, as tough I think is very lovely from them, I just can't smile or laugh, I can't.

"Thank you Finn, that's really sweet from you guys." I said and he smiled again and we go to the tables outside and sit with the rest of the glee club.

"Rachel!! Nice to have you back, girl!" Mercedes said excited and I tried my best to fake a smile.

"Good to be back." I said, that's actually a lie, but who cares right? One thing that I learned with Jesse was how to keep the appearances and I think I'm pretty good at it.

While we were having lunch, I talked a little but mostly of the time I just listened, I'm kind of used to it now, it's shocking to say that cause before I always used to talk a lot, laugh and have a good time but that was taken from me. When Jesse started to come to McKinley we used to sit with the glee club, but he was the only one who talked, if I talked, specially with a boy, he would go crazy and say that I was cheating on him. I know he is under arrest and that he can't touch me anymore, but why do I keep feeling that he is still watching me somehow? That anytime he will kill me or something? Gosh, I hate that.

I'm listening to Mercedes story and when I look to a random spot behind her, I see a man staring right at me, like he knew me or something, just like in the hospital but this time weren't Jesse it was a random man, he is between trees and in the shadow, my heart beats really fast and I close my eyes and shake my head again and he were gone, like he were never there, just like in the Hospital. I need to get out of here.

"Hm...I gotta go, I need to grab something in my locker, see ya guys later." I said faking a smile and grab my backpack and got the hell out of there, I can feel the confused glares burning on my back but I just keep going.

When I walk in the school I immediately go to the bathroom and thank God is empty cause everybody is having lunch, I just sit on the floor and cover my face with my hands and break down crying and stayed crying for about 10 minutes until someone walk in.

"Rachel?" I heard someone saying and I look up and quickly wipe my tears and stand up.

"Hey Kurt." I said turning my sight to the mirror to clean my makeup.

"Are you okay?" He asked with a worried face.

"Yeah Kurt, chill, I'm just fine." I said and look to him faking a smile.

"So why you were crying?" Kurt asked and I sighed.

"Cause I needed to cry, but now I'm just fine again, don't worry." I said and grab my backpack.

"Right." He said in a disbelief tone "Rachel, I know you have been trough a lot this past year and you were alone, but you need to know that I'm here if you need someone." He said and I can tell he is being honest.

"Thank you Kurt." I said and the bell ring saving my ass. "Now, I really have to grab a few stuff in my locker and go to class, see ya later."

"See ya." He said and I left and go straight to my locker. When I opened my locker a note fell and I grab it and read.

"I know that we are apart right now, but soon we will be reunited again, my love.

And honey, don't tell anyone about our future meeting, it's better when it's private.

Miss you tons

-JSTJ"

WHAT THE HELL? Who left this here?! What the fuck?! Okay Rachel...Relax and think clearly...Jesse is under arrest, he could never have put this in my locker cause he is in prison. That must be a sick joke from one of the jocks...Right? Yeah! Right!

"You're okay? You're pale, like you have seen a ghost." Finn said and I small smiled.

"I'm fine, let's go to class?" I asked throwing the note inside my locker and shutting it.

"Yeah." He said and we go to the History class that we have together.