'Jesse! Stop being so fucking jealous! I'm not having an affair with Finn! He's my best friend!' I said in an annoyed tone and started walking away.
'Just because we're not in same schools, doesn't mean that I don't know what happen between you and him!' Jesse shouted and grab my wrist making my face him.
'Let me go! It's hurting Jesse!' I said with tears about to fall, we're in an empty parking lot, it's already dark.
'Why? For you run after Hudson?!' He said raising his voice and I'm nervous cause I don't know what the hell will he do.
'Don't say that Jesse! I love you, Jesse! I would never cheat on you!' I said raising my voice as well, and oh gosh, I really wish I didn't. After that I felt a hard slap against my face, my left cheek was burning.
'Oh my God, Rachel. I am so so sorry, I love you, please forgive me.' Jesse said break down crying and I hugged him, I too much scared what he would do if I didn't.
And in the very next day, Jesse St. James joined McKinley, making my life a living hell.
"AAAAAAAAA!" I yelled waking up and my heart were beating fast. I couldn't breathe, my whole body is covering in my own sweat. I look to the clock next to my bed and I see it's 2:48am. Gosh, I hate that, I hate Jesse St. James, I hate so much what he did to me that I can't even sleep.
I tried to sleep again, tried really hard, but I just can't! Arghhhh, this is so frustrating! Last night I couldn't sleep well because of the nightmares, I only could sleep well when I was at Finn's, I feel safe in his arms and I just slept for a couple of hours.
I stayed in my bed for awhile but then I noticed that no matter how hard I tried, I wouldn't be able to sleep, so I just go downstairs with my blanket and put some a movie. When the movie ended was almost 5am and I still can't sleep.
I am tired, I wanna sleep but every time I lay myself down, I can't stop thinking, my head don't stop spinning and starts to come the imagine of Jesse St James.
I stayed sitting on the couch wrapped in my blanket staring the wall just thinking. When I look to my clock is 5:30am, fuck, why doesn't the time run by faster?!
I watch one episode from friends and it's now, 5:50am. I just go back upstairs and put a sweatpants, my hoodie and left the house, I gotta go to the park. I need to have to time to think.
I just go walking to the park and I feel the cold breeze from November hitting my face and I take a deep breathe, why does life have to be so difficult? Why can't my life be like from the others teenagers girls? I think the universe hates me, that's the only acceptable answer.
I sit on a bench in front of the lake and keep admiring, the sun is not on the sky yet cause it's winter so nights are longer.
"Rachel?" I heard a very familiar voice saying and I frown my eyebrows and look to the person that were behind me.
"Watcha doing here this time?" Finn asked her.
"I should ask you that." I said, I'm confused as hell.
"I was jogging, you doesn't looks like someone who have been jogging." He said mentioning the fact that I was wearing sweatpants and a hoodie, don't blame me for being cold!
"I had to come out for a walk, couldn't stand being in home. And since when did you jog?" I asked and he giggled.
"Since Kurt said I had to do exercise cause I just eat crap." Finn said and I laughed a little and he sit next to me.
"Well, I know I've been kind of put for the past months but I'm pretty sure that you still play football and that's exercise enough." I said giggling and Finn laughed.
"I know, I know... But sometimes I like to do some exercise for my own, not because the Coach is yelling at us to do it." Finn said and I chuckle.
"Makes sense."
"How about you, why you couldn't stand being home?" Well, I can't tell him the truth or can I? I'm so confused.
"I didn't had a good night of sleep, I tried to sleep again but failed miserably. So I decided to go out for a walk before go back home and take a shower to school."
"Bad dreams?" He asked and I don't think there is any need to tell him about the nightmares, right? It will worry him for nothing so I'm just following for the easiest path.
"Nah, I just slept in a bad position." I said lying trough my teeth but I don't have any difficult to lie, I can do that in my sleep. Fuck Jesse St. James ruined me.
"I hate when that happen."
"It's really sucks."
"By the way, nice outfit." He joked and I laughed cause I am wearing a pink GAP hoodie and grey sweatpants with socks and sandals, normally I would feel embarrassed for someone seeing me basically in my pj's but I just got in a point of my life that I don't care anymore.
"Thank you, I can get you one of these." I mocked and he laughed.
"No thank you, glad that you offered."
"Just wait till your birthday." We laugh when I said that.
"Oh fuck, now I'll have matching clothes with you and that is grey sweatpants and pink hoodie." He said desperate and I laughed.
"If you can keep complaining I'll give you MY hoodie and I don't know if you ever noticed but the difference of heights between us a lot of inches."
"Hell I noticed, since I have actually to look down to talk to you."
"It's not my fault you're giant."
"And you're shorty."
"Shut up." I said and tap his arm lightly and he smirk.
"Look, it's 6:30am, we should go home to don't get late."
"I think you're right."
We go walking till my house, Finn actually lives in the beginning of the street so it's not a change in his ways.
"Thanks for bringing me home, Finn."
"You're welcome. Want me to pick you up to school?"
"You sure? I mean, you don't have to."
"Cmon, I want to."
"Okay then, I'll see ya later."
"See ya."
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FanfictionRachel Berry is 16 and is in the sophomore year of High School, she dates Jesse St.James but he is an abusive boyfriend. What will happen when the story comes out and Jesse wants revenge?