break my heart | e.c

Tell me you've never loved me

"He ain't talking to you? Like at all?"

It was the third day of you not talking to me or even responding to my messages so I gave up because what was the point? You didn't control me, you were only a friend who was allowed to give their opinion but nothing more than that. Giving up what I had with Richard wasn't worth it. Despite the "relationship" we had, I knew he needed a friend to spill his heart to and I was that person. Breaking things off with him would only hurt him more and that was the last thing I wanted. Who were you to end something like that?

"Yeah, but I don't care anymore, Rich. He can't tell me what to do, I'm so tired of him trying to control me."

"Yes," Richard said with a look. "But you love him and I know this is hurting you."

"I want to be happy, Richard. That's all I want but he's not allowing me reaching it."

Richard took my hand in his and leaned in to kiss my forehead. "I'm sorry, mami. I'm sorry for how stupid and blind my friend is."

Shaking my head, I scoffed. "It's not your fault he's stupid. I think I have some fault as well for not telling him what I feel."

I don't regret not texting you that whole morning because you did. My naive heart thought that maybe you couldn't be without me for so long, that staying mad at me was impossible. You apologized to which, dumbly enough, I accepted because, in reality, it was me who couldn't live without you.

That afternoon you were drunk. You were drunk and texting me meaning that I was on your mind and like the idiot I was, I thought it was for only one reason. You just had to feel something because if you didn't then why did you say those things?

cubanito 😛

i miss yuoooo

imiss you so nuch it hurts

mika 💓

you miss me already? it's only been 3 days lol

aw erick :(

cubanito😛

i misss you everyday when youre not with me

mika💓

erick, are you drunk?

cubanito😛

sipi but because i miss you

youve been gone for so long

why

mika 💓

bc YOU stopped talking to me

that's on you dummy

cubanito😛

estoy llorando

mika💓

i'm sorry please don't cry

are you ok?

cubanito😛

i need you here with me

please come

i need yuo mroe than ever

Shouldn't be a shocker but I went because I cared about you, because I did love you. You seemed so broken so I knew I wasn't the exact reason you were like that but I was part of it. Now I know that I was lying to myself this whole time and honestly, I pity myself so much. I always knew that all my illusions were false and part of my broken heart but it was my only hope. A sad hope - by the way - because I regret everything now.