The Mob Princess

It was just a mistake

We headed to the closest hotel to the bar, not wanting to make the trip back to the cabin. I cant believe I just did that I lost my virginity and it was to Joe my bodyguard. I woke up in the morning and rubbed my eyes, my head pounding from all the drinking I did the night before, I looked over to see Joe asleep bare chested a slight snore coming from him. I sat up and I looked on the floor to realize both of our clothes laid thrown around the hotel room. I slid out of the bed and walked into the bathroom running the shower. I stepping in letting the water wash off the smell of smoke, booze and staginite air from last night. Thoughts of last night with Joe began to flash in my head. I could still feel his arms wrapped around me, what it felt like to have him inside me, he was the first guy to make me feel all those feelings why do I feel like that somehow just complicated everything.

I walked into the bedroom a short while later Joe was sitting up in the bed on his phone. He looked up with a look on his face I couldnt put my finger on.

"ummm morning"

"Brooklyn"

"Joe"

"We better get dressed and head back to the cabin after I shower"

"oh okay".

I got out of bed still in nothing but his boxer briefs and walked into the bathroom not saying a word to me or even looking in my direction. He showered and within the hour we were checked out and back on the road heading back to the hotel. The entire hour and a half drive back he didnt say a word didnt even glance up once at me, I started to wonder if I had done something wrong.

We pulled up and headed in we were met by Duke who seemed confused that we werent at the cabin all night. Joe headed into the office without speaking. I headed back into the bedroom falling back onto the bed a tear a frustration in my eye. I had to have done something wrong for Joe to not even look at me. Did he regret last night because I didnt. I dont understand on why we had such a good time last night he cut loose we had fun fuck we fucked in the bathroom for god sakes and now he cant even look at me.

I walked into the office shutting the door, my head hung in my hands, I lost all control last night and ended having sex with Brooklyn in the bathroom at some random club, this isnt me. She was supposed to just be a job she somehow got to me. I cant let what happen happen again, it cant cloud my judgement because if it does I dont know how Im supposed to do my job and protect her. I couldnt protect Peyton and she wasnt even my client how was I supposed to protect Brooklyn. I have to fight the feelings that Im starting to feel because lets be real when this is done she is going to just go back home to her normal life and I wont be but a second thought anyways. Im going to have to just pull back focus on the job and only the job and not what it felt to be with her, have her in my arms what it was like to be in her. The faster I can find out who is doing this and put a stop to it the faster life can be back to normal for all of us.

I stood in the bedroom for the rest of the day just thinking about everything and trying to figure out what I had done wrong to have Joe ignore me. It was seven in the evening when there was a knock on the door,

"Brooklyn I ordered pizza come eat"

I sighed and wiped me eyes as I opened the door heading out. Joe was in the kitchen back to the doorway.

"You wanted me"

"you need to eat"

he pushed the pizza box towards me not even looking at me. I grabbed a paper plate and sat down quitely in the kitchen chair. The tension was so bad you could cut it with a knife. We sat siliently for the next 10 minutes when I just couldnt take it anymore I had to say something.

"Joe are you mad at me did I do something wrong?'"

"Brooklyn listen last night was just a mistake, I shouldnt have done that, we shouldnt have done that"

"wait...what hold on, what are you saying because I dont regret it."

"Of course you dont your used to that type of a thing, your my client and I let the liquor and everything else get to me. I cant confuse the situation here"

"and that is"

"your my client nothing more once this job is done we go back to our actual lives and move on. I cant protect you like this"

"like what because you wanted it just as much as I did"

"even if I did I was out of line and it wont happen again, any of it, the clubs, drinking fucking none of it. We have to keep it that way."

"Joe what the fuck were both grown if we wanna fuck we can fuck"

"thats were you wrong, it will not happen again, I cant protect you like that"

"so then dont, Ill worry about myself and we can do what we want"

"damn it Brooklyn NO"

"You know what thats some fucked up shit Joe, we go out you obviously wanted me as much as I wanted you and now that we had sex you wanna be a douchebag"

"this is how its gonna be"

"Im supposed to be the good little girl, listen to everything you say but I cant fuck you, fuck outta here"

"Damnit Brooklyn dont make this harder than it needs to be"

"Fuck you Joe, hope it was good for you because you just ruined my first time thanks!!"

She stormed out slamming the bedroom door as I sat stunned. She just admitted she was a virgin till me last night. If I didnt feel like a asshole for how I have to treat her now I feel lower than low that it was her first time. Her first time should have been special, everything she dreamed of not in some sleezy dance club bathroom fueled by liquor and my lack of self control when it comes to her. I grabbed a beer from the fridge and dropped onto the chair in the living room all I could think is great I hurt her and as much as she isnt going to admit it I did because I have 7 sisters that is something so special she cant get back, I fucked up Peyton and now Brooklyn. I stood there for awhile thinking before I got up walking down the hall and knocking on the door,

"Brooklyn"

"Go away"

I could hear that she was crying in her voice and that broke my heart knowing I was the cause of it.

"Brook please open up can we talk"

"NO"

"Brook please"

A few seconds later the door opens, there she stood tears in her eyes. She looked so lost like a little girl and my heart sunk.

"What you want Joe havent you said enough"

"Listen can we talk please"

she stepped to the side and sat on the edge of the bed, I sat down next to her. I stood for a moment looking at the hurt in her eyes, the hurt I just caused.

"Brook look in sorry about out there, things got carried away last night with you and I let my judgement go, I didnt mean to hurt your feelings and I had no idea that last night was your first time."

"Well it was, I thought I seen something in you but I was wrong. Maybe it was the liquor but at that moment it felt so right. What did I do wrong Joe"

"Brook nothing, Im at fault I shouldnt have took it there, we have to remember as soon as we find out who is after you and I take care of it we go back to our real lives"

Yeah our real lifes, listen I have a headache can you leave me alone please."

I looked over at her to see the tears fall, I pushed a stray piece of hair from her face and wiped a tear before standing up and leaving.

Just like that he walked out and I know where I stand he didnt want me it was the liquor and heat of the moment. I dont know why this is effecting me like this its not like were a couple and he was right soon enough I will be back to my life back to being the daughter of one of the most feared men in family history. As much as I wanted to be back to my own life something about going back to it is eating at me.