I Am Me (Book One): Weakness

Chapter 18: Your Role

This will be another smut at the end, but I will shorten this one definitely since the point isn't the sex, but of what the title infers. Who they are. Still, use your common sense if you don't want to read this kind of thing. And I will separate it clearly from the non-sexual, so as to give you the details of the important conversation for these characters. 

Oh, and why sex in this chapter? They are young and with mating basically being the werewolf version of marriage, it's like their honeymoon phase. And I'm hoping the convo before the smut breathes life into why the man who works to put the macho men in their place with a guy he could bench press without trying.

Mark's POV

Well. That was something. Why I never realized that Dad would have a biology lesson in plan for today, I swear I would have called for a rain check. Still, his intention was right and his method was effective. I can feel the turmoil inside Isaiah, but is it about what dad said, or does it have to do with me? I don't want our relationship to end or have any negativity. I want us to grow and maybe have a family at some point. You figure that making your mark on society does only good, but it seldom is always that way. We may change the views of shifters, but is it a right to be role models in this, or do we push them to take care of themselves, which is to live up to societies expectation of what we are?

"Isaiah? Are you okay?"

"I'm a little rattled, but I am relatively, yet ultimately, okay with whatever you choose." Whatever I-

"Whatever I choose?! What are you talking about!"

"Well, as your father put in a delicate way, I'm wimpy. Had I maybe exercised a little bit, my body could've maybe handled a child. And quite obviously, neither of us are gonna put my life in danger for a few moments of bliss, even if they are so damn amazing. The reality is, both of us would be devastated, and honestly, I couldn't bear through with you blaming yourself for hiring me."

"Well...duh! So what am I choosing?!"

"Well, whether you....you know....want someone else." He says with a worried look hidden behind brave eyes, staring at me. 

"Isaiah, there is no choice when it comes to you. True, I don't want to be disrespected, but following your lead is inevitable whether I like it or not. Not only because you're Alpha, but because you're wiser and wherever you go, I want to be. So inevitably, by being yours, you already put me in my place, and I couldn't be happier to be under your little thumb." I say as I punctuate it with a kiss on said thumb as I hold his hand. "I don't want to be degraded, and I'm never that way when you're around. I'm not treated like a trophy to be won or a stereotype inevitable to fail at being anything else than very simplicity of the term that they put shame upon. Your way of dominating me is using my love against me, to use it to crumble my fear of being taken and letting someone make me feel the things that are supposed to be wonderful for me without feeling that they are what make me less. And the fact that you feel you don't measure to the requirements to be on top, the fact that you think I can't handle the fact that I'm not always gonna be in control, only probes my resolve correct, to protect you from those that say what we are is wrong. And I swear to whoever witnesses this conversation, I will hammer into you this very fact as you hammer into me!!!"

....... "YEAH, YOU GET HIM BOY!!!!"

What the hell?! We look out our window to find those same men who mocked me actually agreed with me.

"Sorry! We couldn't help ourselves. You were ultimately right and we are sorry treating ya like that. Just hope you know that we didn't really think that of ya. We just wanted to give ya a hard time, but we forgot to include ya in on the act. I actually find it amazing that there are Omega who can work to be like us, but honestly, if I ever thought Omega would be inferior, my baby would have my head."