Twoset Violin oneshots or possibly more

I'll heal the heartache

Boys Can't Love Boys conclusion

( Here's the happy conclusion from Brett's Pov hope ya'll like it)

I slowly moved my hand up from Eddy's waist to rub his mid back and shoulders. Hoping that by me rubbing circles into his flesh that those tears would cease. I even tried to hum his favorite classical piece to calm this sudden outburst. None of it seemed to work but instead made it worse," Eddy." I whispered as he avoided eye contact," What do you need me to do?"

He seemed to think about this for a long while not knowing the answer himself thus he didn't reply instead he buried his face into my shoulder. I accepted this, perhaps what I was doing was helping. We sat together in silence for the next 20 minutes before he finally calmed down. I waited for a few moments before I finally broke the silence," Feeling better?"

Eddy shook his head no. I sighed," Want to go eat to feel better? Maybe like Chinese take out or pizza then we could just chill out and watch attack on titan and eat a bit more food like ice cream." I smiled watching him wearily.

Eddy smiled back and reluctantly agreed," That sounds nice." He slowly moved away from me making his own little perch on the sofa.

" I'll let you stay here, so you can relax as I go get food" I stood up," Unless you want to come with me."

" I think I'll stay behind. Maybe shower." Eddy decided fairly quickly compared to earlier questions.

I decided to leave it be and head out hoping that my friend would be okay on his own," if something happens please please call me.

____________________________________________

I return back fairly quickly after deciding on Chinese take out. Once I unlock the door and walk in my anxiety begins to creep up because I don't hear him or any movement.It jumps to the worse conclusions that exists in humanity. The worst things to happen in my world would be the absence of Eddy. Dang it, he better have not done anything stupid. I quickly set the food on the table calling out," Eddy?" I get no response which only feeds my anxiety as I walk further, heading towards the bathroom knocking on the door," Eddy, are you in there?"

".... Yeah I'm in here...," Finally I got an answer to my instant relief even if his voice sounded dry and raspy. Had he been crying again in the shower.

" Are you okay? Is the door unlocked?" I leaned my ear against the door to listen to his response

I hear Eddy's movement behind the door," I'm fine,' he said once more as he previously said while crying," I'm just thinking. The door is unlocked...I'm coming out don't worry. I want food." he laughed before coughing

I move away from the door smiling slightly as he comes out," I decided on Chinese takeout."

"Better of not kung pao my chicken" he laughed with a smile.

I think," What if I did kung pao your chicken for not practicing like Ling Ling."

" I'd cry for forty hours a day," He said jokingly but it still hit too close to the situation for my taste. I still laughed though so he wouldn't feel awkward. Together we made the the trek back to our food.

" Want to sit at the table or at the sofa so we can watch stuff as we eat." I picked the take out boxes up knowing his decision would be the sofa

" seems like I have no choice now besides the sofa." He grabbed silverware before heading to the sofa flopping down." Feed me!"

I sat down by him chuckling," Want me to make it scream as you chew as well?" I say sarcastically.

" Would you do that?!" He exclaimed just like an excited child," That would be so funny!" after such a reaction I can't deny him this especially after the mysterious outburst today. I silently took a fork from him and opened the box of general tso's chicken  to  stab a piece so that it may be fed to the taller of us.  He watched me curiously as I lifted it to his face.  Eddy must of not thought that I would do so. He slowly opened his mouth chomping down on the chicken as I screamed pretending it was some kind of living organism being eaten alive. Eddy laughed so hard he almost choked.

" Okay no more of that you almost died." I patted him on the back encase he was still dying from inhaling food.

Eddy continued to cough and laugh but nodded agreeing with my verdict that he should eat his own food without screaming affects.  He would be more likely to live this way.

We take our separate food as I turned the tv on looking for all the Attack On Titan episodes we had recorded but missed. Hmmm part of me wonders if it's a good show to watch while eating, who cares though. I watched the show intensely as I ate, it was strange though because Eddy's eyes weren't on the screen but lingered on me.  I caught him staring several times as if he had something to say; however, giving up on his words as soon as I'd look at him.  This kinda freaked me out, given it might of been because of the anxiety that cripples my mind around him.  What if I was the reason for him being upset and that was the reason he kept looking at me.  It would definitely explain why nothing I could do would calm him.  Maybe it's nothing.  Yeah nothing.  But what if it isn't!  

I looked at him quickly when I noticed him staring again," Do you need something? You keep looking at me" the words come out sharp and cruel by accident because of the panic in the back of my brain.  I immediately regretted saying anything when I saw the face he made in reaction.  It looked so dejected," I didn't mean it like that I'm sorry. I just want to know if you're okay because you keep looking over at me.'

Eddy quickly shook his head no then looked down at his food seeming to try and ignore what just happened.  This just worsened my anxiety 

" Am I the problem? Am I why you're upset?" I asked hastily wanting closure.

" Yes! No! Maybe! I don't know okay!" His eyes darted back at me as soon as the words fell from my mouth.

I slowly stood up," How can you not know!"

He brought his hands to his head," I just don't! Okay!.... I just don't...." his volume starts to grow quieter and quieter.

" Maybe I just should leave so you can have some time." I frown wanting the answers now . I didn't want to wait, how could he not know if the problem was me or not. I turn my back to him so I can leave him to his own thought but to my surprise Eddy grabs my arm before bringing a silent plea that shocks me even more so.

" Please don't leave me, I love you why would I want you to leave." He said so softly and weakly. Words laced with pain.  I wasn't used to hearing him sounding like this, it was so sad... Wait! Did he just say that he loved me!?  Like love love or as a friend?!  

I looked back at him wide eyed," What did you say?"

" I said I loved you" He raised his voice enough so I could hear the words shake out of his mouth. He looked up at me in fear then his gaze fell to the ground. I could practically feel his own self loathing for those words that he let fall from the safety of his lips.  He slowly let go of my arm as he silently spoke," You can go now if you want. I understand if you want to... I'm sorry if I freaked you out." He says through clenched teeth trying to hold back any signs of embarrassment or tears. 

I sat back down quietly then carefully cupped his face to force him to look at me," I love you too." I spoke softly then kissed his forehead," Is this okay?"

He looked at me eyes starting to water and his walls finally coming down," I thought boys couldn't love boys." Eddy choked out leaning into my hands

" Paradigms are meant to be broken.... validation can only be given to ourselves by ourselves not by others." I said softly in thought. I then kissed his cheek where tears once fell," I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like you were less"

( Just remember you don't need another persons love or validation. You are valid as you are after all you were born for such a time as this making your very existence meaningful! Just wanted to leave a little positive note for all of you)