I Am Me (Book Two): Fate Is Wrong

Chapter 10: The Master

A smut chapter! As per usual, I will signify the smut for those that don't want it. And for those who probably figured it out from the previous book, the smut is predictable. I like submitting the big guys to the little people. I will still have stories where we have the normal bottom and tops that we usually see in these romances between boys, but my style definitely shows where my preferences lie. So....yeah, expect that much from me unless I say otherwise. As per usual, use you common sense. 

Nathamial's POV

I continue to look out the window as we pass more and more trees, away from the town I once called home. Why do these two really great guys care so much? I know that I was able to establish a relationship of mutual respect from the both of them, but they can see my flaws can't they? Does it not drive them off? Or at least disgust them? I don't know and I'm too tired to care. 

Poor Val. He told me about the stuff going on with his dad. Bastard. Not only is he a manipulative  little snake, but he is an evil genius. He apparently instigated that Andy thing.  How exactly is still being looked into. No one knows the connection between Andy and his father, but they are seen together at the same bar that Val went to a couple days after his dad went to see him. Rightfully, Val is pissed and wants to leave as much as I do and by virtue of the fact that I now own Eddie, and I'm not gonna her over that anytime soon or ever, Val is coming along. Now, he is sitting in the back, asleep after watching his program. He is so sweet and cute as he snores softly, with a bit of drool on the corner of his mouth. I really don't deserve him, but I'm glad I have him.

Then there is my 'slave'. Oh boy. That is a can of worms all on its own. And now not only have they been reopened, but the contents have been dumped all over the floor. I really don't know what his plan is to do with this agreement of ours, but he's crazy if he thinks I'm gonna order him around. I'm fully capable of taking care of myself. In fact, my whole life currently revolves around making sure I am making Val happy. I don't need to be waited on hand and foot. I need to just....I just want it all to stop being so difficult for me to be happy where others suffer. Why should I be happy when others are sad. Needless to say, I've come to realize that even when I try to remove myself from the picture, only more people get hurt. My wolf is sad in my thoughts. I worry about letting it out now given how severely depressed I've been. The one thing Val wanted to point out to me is that "I've not lost everything and everyone". 

"Okay, Nathan. What do you think about stopping here for the night?"

I look around the wide open space. Though it's dark out, my nocturnal senses allow me to perceive what is going on in the darkness. 

"I don't know. Is there anything special about it."

"Not really. It's just been getting late and it's about time we head in for the night. At least to relax and all."

"Oh.....right. Well.....good night....."

I shake Val until he stirs slightly. We agreed before hand that me and Val will take the bedroom while Eddie sleeps on the couch.

"Come on babe, it's time for bed."

"Hold on. I'd like for us to talk for a minute." I sit down puzzled but not surprised. We will most likely be setting ground rules about personal space and how me and Eddie can't be in the same room until he knows that we aren't gonna do anything. "Babe, do you love Eddie?"

Okay, maybe not. "Of course I do! But not in the same way I do you. It's not changed even this long into our lives. I'm sorry Eddie, but not only did I view you as just my best friend, but I know even less about you now that we have been apart for so long."

"That is fair. Are you bothered by this, Val?"

"....Yeah, it's freaking my wolf out. Still, I want to see if maybe Deacon here is what you really need. I know, we are mates, but our mark is gone and by virtue of it, I want us to starting dating again until we figure whether we still feel the same about each other. Agreed?"