I Am Me (Book Two): Fate Is Wrong

Chapter 14: Farm Wolf Date

A/N: More Smut. Same as usual when it starts, you will be notified.

Eduardo's POV

As the sun sets on the horizon, I begin herding in the livestock for the night. Growing up on this farm has brought me so much joy, as well as thick skin given all the trouble I get. Falling from the barn roof, getting my stomach torn by a bull, and worst of all, those chickens. They aren't much on their own, but they are ruthless together with a rooster. I love this place and will continue to work on it for the rest of my days.

Things between me and Nathan have been....brief. It's always either something the farm needs tending to or the boy disappearing into the woods for a run in his wolf form. Speak of the devil, I see the wolf prance through the grass into the woodlands after I locked the animals safely up for the night. I had a gut feeling that he was heading to the clearing that had the pond for when ducks are out or fireflies at night. Since it's gonna be night, he is likely gonna look for fireflies. When I get to the pond, I see his human form sitting as he watches the insects dance and flicker over the surface of the waters.

"It's real beautiful. I don't know how you don't come here every night in the summer or at least tell me about it." I shift from wolf to human to have a proper conversation with him.

"I suppose I always take this all for granted. Like I did with you all those years ago. After partying nearly every night, my life would feel dull and empty once the lights and music went down. I never really enjoyed these quiet moments here. It would make me prone to reflect and the last thing I wanted was to honk about how I let you go and you begging me not to leave."

He gives me a smile before turning back to the pond. The moon is full and reflecting off the waters as do the fireflies. I can catch his scent just within his proximity and I can't help myself. I turn his head and kiss him  with all the need I've still had built over the years, not wanting to let go in fear that he and the last eleven days will all be a very complex dream that will fade from my memory. I want to memorize his scent so as to remember how lucky I am to have him right here. When I get another whiff, though, I notice a strong scent permeate from him. It's so familiar....because it's Valer's scent. Before I know it, a growl escapes me and I'm pulling his shirt enough to show me the new mark of his mating. My wolf is inconsolable, making me unreasonable as I start walking away.

"Eddie? Eddie! Don't walk away from me like that! Talk to me. What are you so angry about?" Why am I angry? I knew this would happen, but I figured there would be some hope. A chance...but fate is always right isn't it? I need to get out of here. I need a drink. I need to forget.

"Would you stop walking away and actually tell me why your so angry?!"

"You know exactly why", I snap at him. 

"Do I now? Cuz frankly, from how I understood it, you weren't gonna go off leaving me alone again."

"Well, things change and people lie."

"So you lied when you said you wanted to be with me for as long as wanted you there?" Fuck. That isn't true. We both know it. Maybe he will drop it if I say it's correct...but do I want to break his heart again?....no, I am too much of a coward to face his broken heart in front of me.

"Well, no, but-"

"I understand your jealousy. I do! Guess what though. You're not in charge anymore. I am! You're here to serve my needs and you claimed that is all you wanted for me since I do so for everyone else apparently." Oh, not this shit. Damn contract. Why did I have to let my heart and dick tell me it was a good idea to give my soul away?

"That's because you do exactly that. Ever since we were kids, you were always worrying about mine or someone else's well-being. I don't mean to imply that you didn't mean anything to me. It's entirely the opposite-"