It's Complicated (Troyler/Tronnor)

Chapter 9: Flashback Friday

Songs:

Hunter Hayes-What You Gonna Do

Hunter Hayes- More Than I Should

P!nk-The Truth About Love

Chapter 9

Troye's POV

I'm ruining everybody's good time.

Every time someone mentions a bar, I can't help it. I just faint. I wish I didn't. But I do.

Everybody knows that Tyler likes to drink. He didn't go to the bar tonight. I held him back.

I'm going to try to overcome this... I have to. Or else I'll be holding Tyler back.

Next Morning

I wake up and Tyler is still asleep. He's so cute. He's helped me through so much. I used to be so depressed.

Flashback

I was running. I don't know where I am, but I'm going to keep running. Running until I can't feel anymore. It's so dark. I'm running as fast as I can away from the bar. From Justin. From everything. From everyone. I can still hear the music blasting in my ears.

I find a bus stop shelter. I sit down and put my face in my hands. I'm still crying buckets. I was in an unfamiliar part of the city. I didn't like it. The sign said 34. I'm assuming that's the bus stop number. I sit there for at least 20 minutes. I call my house. Tyde answers.

"Hello?" He says.

"Hey Tyde, is dad there?"

"Uh, yeah lemme get him."

"Hello?" My dad says.

"Dad I need you to come pick me up."

"Okay, where?"

"Bus stop 34?"

"Why don't you just ride the bus home?"

"Please."

"Are you okay? "

"No. Hurry up. I need you."

He gets me and brings me home. He could tell I was in no condition to talk, so we sat in silence in the car. As soon as we got home I run up to my room. I've done a lot of running tonight. I slammed my door, and walked into my bathroom. I leaned on the countertop where the sink was and stared myself in the face.

"Come on Troye. Do it. Do it." A little voice in my head said.

My brain then said, "Troye don't do it. Don't do it."

The little voice over powered my brain. I searched for the razor I shave my face with. I disassembled it, three separate blades fell out. I grabbed one. I've never done this before. I never thought I would have to. I've always told people it's never that bad that you have to do this. Now I understand. I have to do it.

I roll my pant leg up so it's just above my knee.

"One. Two. Three."

I made one cut. Barely scratching the surface.

I tried again. A deep one this time.

This did help. A lot.

End of flashback

I them came across Tyler Oakley. That's when my first crush on him appeared. I never talked to him or anything, but just knowing he existed made me feel better. Just knowing I could watch him made me feel better. It's lame but true.