Sanders Sides HighSchool

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10:05pm Anxiety- Hey, am I the only one who can't sleep?

Pattoncake- I can't sleep either, but we have school tomorrow so you should try to get some    sleep Virg

Anxiety- psh, I won't be able to get any sleep no matter how hard I try

Logic- I to am unable to fall asleep tonight

Anxiety- that sucks.

Anxiety- How about Roman?
Logic- Well he's sleeping in the guest bedroom, so far so good

Pattoncake- well that's good. Out of all of us he needs the most sleep

Anxiety- Yea

Pattoncake- do you think tomorrow will go well? I mean, for Roman mainly, but for us all?

Logic- I do not know, why do you ask?

Pattoncake- I don't know, I just have this feeling that I can't shake, ya know?
Anxiety- same

Logic- Yea well there' no point worrying about tomorrow when its still today

Pattoncake- :0 so wise

Logic- why thank you

Anxiety- What do you guys think is next for us?
Logic- I don't know...I think that this is going to take a while to sort things out, I think that things are going to be bad before things can get better..

Pattoncake- I think we are going to have a lot of rough times...but I think we can all get through it. We all work so well together, and I think we all are so good for each other. No matter what happens I think we'll all still be friends.

Anxiety- so wise ;)

Pattoncake- Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Logic- well, we should all talk more about this tomorrow, as of now we all should still try to get some sleep

Pattoncake- Yea, tomorrow's a big day

Pattoncake- Good Night you all!!!!!

Logic- Pleasant Dreams

Anxiety- Night

I leave my messages app and go watch some youtube. I know I won't be able to get any sleep, so I just watch videos. After a hour or so I leave youtube and listen to some music. I try to find things to distract me, things to keep my mind from thinking about everything.  About him...

I open my messages back open and start to text before I can stop myself

Anxiety- Hey Sir SingAlot

I wait, holding my breath as I watch my screen. I kinda want him to be asleep and resting for tomorrow, and I also want him to be awake so we can talk.

Princey- Hi Panic at the Everywhere

Princey- How are you doing?

I smile.

Anxiety- I should be the one asking you that

Anxiety- I'm doing OK

Princey- So am I

Anxiety- Cut the BS, how are you really doing?
Princey- Ok then, you have to cut the BS as well

Anxiety- fine

Anxiety- I haven't been able to sleep because I keep on remembering running into your house right behind you. I still remember just standing there as you screamed at me to do something. I just stood there, not being able to help you. I still remember feeling scared, and powerless. I just stood there when you needed me most, wanting to curl up or run away as fast as I could. But I just couldn't move. I think about how you had to come home to that house for all these years that we've known each other, and I still never knew about what was really going on with you. I just thought that you were OK. I thought I was the only one who had a bad life, but I have nothing to feel sorry for, and I still feel sorry for feeling bad, cause I shouldn't feel bad.

Princey-.....

Anxiety- There you go, now it's your turn.

Princey- Well, I haven't been able to sleep either. I feel like my dad is going to come out of nowhere and take me away. Like he's just waiting to ruin my life again. I feel like a big loser for letting you come into my house with me. I knew that it was a bad idea, but I still took you in there with me. I'm so sorry for yelling at you, I guess I was mainly yelling at myself and just wanted someone to shout to besides me. I keep thinking about how you saved me, if it wasn't for you I would be in my bedroom listening to my dad scream at the TV, and I would be putting bandaids on myself, and hoping for a better life. I would tell you all that it was all OK, I would be miserable. But you saved me. Virgil Storm, I am awake at night because I feel so happy knowing that you are my hero.

Anxiety-....

Anxiety- I'm not a hero

Princey- You are my hero whether you like it or not

Anxiety- You were the one who was strong through the whole thing

Princey- No, I'm the loser who had to cling to you like my life depended on it because I was so scared

Anxiety- I haven't had that kind of a hug in so many years, it felt nice

Princey- It did? How?

Anxiety- Nothing, forget about it

Princey- Whaaaaaa

Princey- I practically used you like a teddy bear though?
Anxiety- ANYWAYS

Anxiety- I heard they're coming out with a Frozen 2

Princey- YEA!
Princey- It's amazing! I can't wait to see it

Princey- Wait.....you're trying to change the subject

Anxiety- So what's your favorite ice cream flavor?
Princey- Cookies and Cream

Princey- Fine, if you don't want to talk about it then I won't make you. I'll just see you tomorrow then...

Anxiety-.....

Princey- Sweet dreamsI look at the phone screen turn black and just sit there, I feel my heart sink down and a lump form in my throat. Yea, as if I'd have a dream tonight, I won't get to sleep, at the most I might get a nightmare if I did. I close my eyes and lean back on my pillow, and stay there until the morning.