Sanders Sides HighSchool

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Pattoncakes-Virgil are you OK? Some people are saying that you were screaming at Roman

Pattoncakes- Virgil?

Pattoncakes- Virgil please talk to me.

Pattoncakes- I need to talk to you

Pattoncakes- Are you even there?
Pattoncakes- Virgil, please

--New Message--

Logic-Virgil, please answer once you see this

Logic- People are saying that you and Roman were in a relationship and today you screamed that it was over at him

Logic- I do not wish to ask what you told Roman, but I do want to talk to you about whatever you would like

Pattoncakes- Virgil Please, it's been a week, where are you? Your mom won't let me come over, are you OK????
Pattoncakes- Roman also isn't at school, what happened?
Pattoncakes- Roman just sent Logan and I a text saying that he's sorry for everything???
Pattoncakes- VIRGIL
Pattoncakes- PLEASE ANSWER
Pattoncakes- I'm sorry if I did anything...

D-Hello Virgil

I open up the messages app and click on his number

Anxiety- What do you want?

D- to talk

Anxiety- Fuck you

D- fair enough, I know that...uh...things aren't well for you right now

Anxiety- Gee, you think?
D- I'll have you know that the kids who were going to beat up Roman backed off

Anxiety- Good

Anxiety- Why?
D- because apparently Romans trash and if they pick on someone like him it'll make them look bad

Anxiety- how nice

D- Its not amazing or anything, but it's something. They also had a little accident so I don't think there going to be messing around with anyone any time soon

Anxiety- what did you do?
D- Don't worry about it

Anxiety- So...how's Roman?
D- I don't know

D- He hasn't really been around that much

D- So Idk

Anxiety- You think I should text him?
D-No

D-You broke up with him remember?
D- He's not going to be happy

D- Besides you can't be with him until a month or so, when this whole thing dies down

Anxiety- But I want to make sure he's OK

D-No

D- Don't you do it

D-He needs time and space right now, he doesn't need his ex to ask him how he's feeling after the same ex broke his heart a few days ago

Anxiety- I broke his heart?
D- He's had it bad for you for some years now

D-I think it's safe to say that you broke both of your hearts

Anxiety-...

D- On the plus side, he should be safe from everyone

Anxiety- I don't know, I still feel...

D- Anxious?
Anxiety- Sad

D- oh

D- that's...not good?
D- You should talk to Patton then. Isn't he the happy one out of the four of you?
Anxiety- I can't talk to them

D-?

Anxiety- They'll be to worried for me or ask to many questions. Their just so good...and I'm nothing like them. I just broke one of our friends heart and made him feel like shit. I feel, like a darker version of them....

Anxiety- Like I just....

Anxiety- Like their so pure, they're the best sid, like some people only show one side of them, and usually there's a good and a bad side. But, the three of them, their sides are both good in their own ways

D- The 3 sides

Anxiety-Yeah

D- So what does that make you?
Anxiety- I guess I'm part of the dark sides....

D-You make it sound like it's the worst thing ever

Anxiety- I just..I'm not like Patton or Logan, and definitely not like Roman

Anxiety- I can't speak to them

D- Well....you always have some dark sides to come to if you want...

Anxiety-...

Anxiety- That's the nicest thing I've ever heard you say

Anxiety- That reminds me, why do you care so much about all of this?
D- I have my reasons

Anxiety- ?
D- How do you know I won't lie to you

Anxiety- I don't

D- Fine

D- I don't give a shit about you all. I don't give a shit about anything, about anyone, about me. And I certainly don't care about the truth. I...

D-When I met Roman he seemed so...so much  like a dream. He and I would escape from reality together. Dreams and lies get along nicely with each other. Roman and I were close, I got too close though. I  had to push him away before things felt real, before our friendship wasn't just  a lie. I had to be the bad guy because that's just how the story goes. Roman may not be my bff or anything, but when I heard those guys talking about harming him. I felt something, that felt real. I haven't felt that in so long.

D-I couldn't just ignore it, I had to act on it, it was the only real feeling I've had in awhile, and I clung onto it

Anxiety- dude....that's

D-Messed up?
Anxiety- Poetic

D-Thanks?
Anxiety- I like your new scars btw, they make you look like a snake, isn't that your fav animal?
D-Yea it is

D- It's not so bad, I kinda like it to

D- Shit

Anxiety- What?

D- I just got a text

D-From Roman

Anxiety- What did he say? Is he OK? Why'd he text you??
D- He...

D- I've got to go

Anxiety- What? Dude, what the hell is going on?
D- I'll tell you later

I watch as my screen turns black. A tear falls down on the screen, "Good luck" I mumble