I know many of you may not know me on a very personal level and others may not care. But this is how my 2019 is going.
It started off ok. I confessed my love to my crush on February 26th of this year and she said she felt the same. So we started dating. While she lives in Australia, I'm in Michigan. So it's a very long distance relationship. And I'd love to make it work.
Next. My birthday was on the 18th of March. Didn't really get anything but that's beside the point. I'm officially 19 and you'd think I would be loving on my own right? Wrong. I'm still stuck at home with my mom and step dad who threaten to kick me out. I actually bought myself a VIP ticket to meet my idol Andy Biersack on the 11th of May and my mom bought me and my best friend the actual tickets. Which was nice of her considering she thinks concerts are a waste of time and money.
As of last year I have been looking for apartments within a low budget as I don't make a lot of money, like, very little. I've only been looking in Michigan for now wanting to be close to my grandma because I love her dearly and I'd hate to be far from her.
That brings us to April. About a few days into April my girlfriend has stopped messaging me. Now I don't know if she got into an accident or something or she's hurt. Mainly I think I've been to clingy and I drove her away. Like I always do. So I haven't heard from her in over two weeks and I'm starting to give up.
Today, technically yesterday April 14th, I was playing with my 5 year old little sister. While we were playing I pulled her pants down to give her a wedgie. Her dad, my stepdad, comes in and she tells him what I did. He freaks the fuck out and basically calls me a pedophile.
He walks away and I go to my room. Well he proceeds to follow me into my room, continues to call me a pedophile and says what I did was considered child abuse. Did I know that? No. I thought I was just playing with her. Ya know, harmless fun right?
He tells me that if I ever touch any of my little siblings again that he would kick my ass and kick me out. Then he says if I touch them he would straight up kill me. Then he leaves the room saying he was disgusted.
The whole time I'm sitting on my bed terrified, thinking what I would do if I got kicked out. I would have nowhere to go. I can't exactly take the car I'm currently using because it's his. And I only have a little over $300 for emergencies.
So when he leaves I start looking up apartments in different states because I don't feel safe in Michigan anymore as long as my stepdad is around.
So long story short. I got threatened and I'm desperately trying to find a new place to live in a different state. Probably in Ohio so I can be close to my Nana.
